th human ; dilaa mat zain
24 April 2008
lets get over ourselves.
dramas unfolding itself.
truth,lies,betrayal are popping on the surfaces like pimples.
mugging hard-cock for a freaking career in life.
studying subjects that doesnt apply in future life at all.
i don know wad im doing.
im practically lost.
lost at sea once again.
losing everything i tot i`ve hold on to.
im away now mommy.
only i can rescue myself now.
the tot of that 5cm white stick is running circles in my head.
shld i?
shldnt i?
ters been too much.
alot infact.
coming in on me like the weight of the earth.
trashing it all in my bloody vein-ny brain.
somebody cannibalistic pls eat me up.
part of me atleast.
starvation shld once again be practise.
as depression sets in,
im practically losing my mind.
mid-yrs in 120hrs.
and i`ve had enuf of all this.
the words and numbers and formulas and events.
the acids and alkalis.
neutralisation.
refraction.
compound interest.
the murderous mt periods.
the rivers and waterfalls.
i`ve had enuf of all bits of it.
soo here i am now.
once again forevermore,
depressed.
thereissomeoneelse.
"hi pretty face"..
dang boy.
i cld already be over u,u know.
so don bother yah.
and you poor big thing.
ur so obnoxious.
eww.
i said the wrong thing again.
im sory once again.
i realize im not into no one.
its just the state of mind.
im just yeah,
gg arnd.
doing wad a girl-like-me do best.
aha.
so stop looking yah u pple.
but mayb an exception for one.
yeah.
cmon lets talk.
tat glare was a killer manne.
u are a murderer boy.
hotstuff bby.
to u no-brainers don bother trying hard to pissed me off.
i`ll still smile.
wide.
u pple.haaaak.
not worth it.
dramas unfolding itself.
truth,lies,betrayal are popping on the surfaces like pimples.
mugging hard-cock for a freaking career in life.
studying subjects that doesnt apply in future life at all.
i don know wad im doing.
im practically lost.
lost at sea once again.
losing everything i tot i`ve hold on to.
im away now mommy.
only i can rescue myself now.
the tot of that 5cm white stick is running circles in my head.
shld i?
shldnt i?
ters been too much.
alot infact.
coming in on me like the weight of the earth.
trashing it all in my bloody vein-ny brain.
somebody cannibalistic pls eat me up.
part of me atleast.
starvation shld once again be practise.
as depression sets in,
im practically losing my mind.
mid-yrs in 120hrs.
and i`ve had enuf of all this.
the words and numbers and formulas and events.
the acids and alkalis.
neutralisation.
refraction.
compound interest.
the murderous mt periods.
the rivers and waterfalls.
i`ve had enuf of all bits of it.
soo here i am now.
once again forevermore,
depressed.
thereissomeoneelse.
"hi pretty face"..
dang boy.
i cld already be over u,u know.
so don bother yah.
and you poor big thing.
ur so obnoxious.
eww.
i said the wrong thing again.
im sory once again.
i realize im not into no one.
its just the state of mind.
im just yeah,
gg arnd.
doing wad a girl-like-me do best.
aha.
so stop looking yah u pple.
but mayb an exception for one.
yeah.
cmon lets talk.
tat glare was a killer manne.
u are a murderer boy.
hotstuff bby.
to u no-brainers don bother trying hard to pissed me off.
i`ll still smile.
wide.
u pple.haaaak.
not worth it.
dila wah wah wah,
hi handsome face,
stop trying already.
hi handsome face,
stop trying already.
11:01:00 PM
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