th human ; dilaa mat zain
13 June 2008
the day before i was hyper den stupidity sets in.
frankly,idk how i got thru ystrdays events.
early in the morn everyting was screwed fo me.
wanted not to go,i sat dead on the sofa.
5mins to mit-ups i lay still-dead.
not wanting to dissapoint frens,
i got thru the day wif soo much cover-ups.
sitting in the the sand with the sun blazing at me,
i keep gg into dreamy zone.
frens kept sayin `u ok?`.
den id start acting again.
i forgot wad im suppose to resist maself too.
whyd u have to come over.
forced maself to keep looking to the ground the entire time.
and its repeating aint it?
eh tanks ar eh.
i don wanna talk bout you.
its soo there already.
get out of ma head pls.
soo its thursdays now ar.
great.
fabulous.
mind over matter i got maself into a condemned situation.
as bad as the ex-experience felt like,
this was indeed a bit more deep.
its deep alrite.
i saw the triangle and its white.
i missed u by a fucking second.
arrrggh!
asclicheasthissoundsicudhvlikedusoomuch.
iwudhvlikedubckaswell.
why do u have to compare.
arrgghh!
im born like this.
wad?
and u judge.
wtf.
its not dat extreme if u ask some others.
those "feedbacks" makes me think anorexic.
its such a human thing to judge.
its SOO human to judge.
think trisha aye?
not funny.
a barrier line to jokes and some hardcore critics,
it crossed the line.
and im ggna sat wadv to it altho it bothers.
frankly,idk how i got thru ystrdays events.
early in the morn everyting was screwed fo me.
wanted not to go,i sat dead on the sofa.
5mins to mit-ups i lay still-dead.
not wanting to dissapoint frens,
i got thru the day wif soo much cover-ups.
sitting in the the sand with the sun blazing at me,
i keep gg into dreamy zone.
frens kept sayin `u ok?`.
den id start acting again.
i forgot wad im suppose to resist maself too.
whyd u have to come over.
forced maself to keep looking to the ground the entire time.
and its repeating aint it?
eh tanks ar eh.
i don wanna talk bout you.
its soo there already.
get out of ma head pls.
soo its thursdays now ar.
great.
fabulous.
mind over matter i got maself into a condemned situation.
as bad as the ex-experience felt like,
this was indeed a bit more deep.
its deep alrite.
i saw the triangle and its white.
i missed u by a fucking second.
arrrggh!
asclicheasthissoundsicudhvlikedusoomuch.
iwudhvlikedubckaswell.
why do u have to compare.
arrgghh!
im born like this.
wad?
and u judge.
wtf.
its not dat extreme if u ask some others.
those "feedbacks" makes me think anorexic.
its such a human thing to judge.
its SOO human to judge.
think trisha aye?
not funny.
a barrier line to jokes and some hardcore critics,
it crossed the line.
and im ggna sat wadv to it altho it bothers.
5:18:00 PM
konek-tion ; dead
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