th human ; dilaa mat zain
22 September 2008
love is such a migrain.
fo my ladies out ther,
i hope u feel me too.
do u hv any idea wad it feels like waking up and knwing abt th mind-killer truth dat th love of ur life is finding happiness with someone else..?
do u knw wad i went thru went th parent called me up @ close to midnite asking me to stay away frm their son?
do u?
huh?
well i very much do.
y does it have to be soo hard?
coz life is hard all arnd aint it?
they walk in and out.
come and go.
leaving stains dats hard to remove.
it was hard on me once upon atime.
den i strt remembering to breathe again.
and take one day at a time.
th love of ur life or th person who cud love u fo life..?
to love or to be loved..?
baffles me.
thnky fo being part of my life.forawhile.
wen nite are thick&silent,th 'forawhile' things we experienced are still lingering arnd in my head.
and wen nites are spent alone,
ur trademarks often left me in tears of agony and hatred.
i got myself so guarded im vulnerable.
i spent 24hr x 3/4wks of my life smitten by ur maThFuhhswittalks.
and it came dwn down to this.
it reali defines u.
i tot i was th one.
i wantd to be th only lady.
i wantd to b th only women u hold in ur arms.
i tot i had special attention frm u.
but turns out i was just ONE of em.
wad true kales are u ggna show off nxt pig.
u cuddav just stop trying stupid.
WTH DO U WAN FRM ME EXACTLY?
wad?
am i just fo show?
ohyeaa,im doing it again.
if u happen to read this even better.
im just sick of it.
of all this trouble dat aint even a problem to begin with.
yea,i got mad here and ther.
but den i stop.
coz i realise its none of my business anymore.
and UR NOT WORTH IT.
cn i strt being faithful and stop lying?
cn i stop being a playa?
cn i ever live off a r/s w/o scandals?
idk.mayb.
letting my guard down isnt exactly my forte.
ive only experienced life fo 16yrs.
idt my decisions made nw are very wise.
like hw u got me all excited.
and den like any other girl aftr th first mit up,
she goes home,
looks forward to th nxt mit up
and strt tinking abt th first ever kiss shes ggna ever experienced with HIM.
loving th wrong person;
u say ily.
but at th time it didnt mean a thing.
i nvr sud hv let u hold me bby.
dats th reason y i strt to c us apart.
we played each other out.
we even nw aye?
i wanted a r/s werby i cud learn sth frm th other.
and lust is put aside.
lemma just rephrase dat.
LEARN STH AND LUST PUT ASIDE.
i dn see dat coming any sooner.*mukee fuhk.
and den YOU.*muke mls nk lyn
y do u tink shes soo nice to u?
hv u ever wondered?
well ofcourse she ggna sucked it up.
she just dnwnnna to hurt u.period.
ure disgusting.**e-yew.
hiding behind layers of secrecy and humour i`ma show u.
i wud be smiling no matter wad happens.
i`ma smile even if my hearts broken a mil times more.
i`ma smile even aftr an arguement with my bestfren.
i`ma smile even tho my results show im a failure.
i`ma smile even wen im not suppose to.
coz th surface matters rite nw.
i`d rather be sick and single rite nw.honestly.
y cnt ya`ll men atleast be like JAMIE FOX.
wise men is a turn on.
forget abt me sang by lil bit.
dedicated to u bby.
WARNING PS:dont interview me abt this post.
fo my ladies out ther,
i hope u feel me too.
do u hv any idea wad it feels like waking up and knwing abt th mind-killer truth dat th love of ur life is finding happiness with someone else..?
do u knw wad i went thru went th parent called me up @ close to midnite asking me to stay away frm their son?
do u?
huh?
well i very much do.
y does it have to be soo hard?
coz life is hard all arnd aint it?
they walk in and out.
come and go.
leaving stains dats hard to remove.
it was hard on me once upon atime.
den i strt remembering to breathe again.
and take one day at a time.
th love of ur life or th person who cud love u fo life..?
to love or to be loved..?
baffles me.
thnky fo being part of my life.forawhile.
wen nite are thick&silent,th 'forawhile' things we experienced are still lingering arnd in my head.
and wen nites are spent alone,
ur trademarks often left me in tears of agony and hatred.
i got myself so guarded im vulnerable.
i spent 24hr x 3/4wks of my life smitten by ur maThFuhhswittalks.
and it came dwn down to this.
it reali defines u.
i tot i was th one.
i wantd to be th only lady.
i wantd to b th only women u hold in ur arms.
i tot i had special attention frm u.
but turns out i was just ONE of em.
wad true kales are u ggna show off nxt pig.
u cuddav just stop trying stupid.
WTH DO U WAN FRM ME EXACTLY?
wad?
am i just fo show?
ohyeaa,im doing it again.
if u happen to read this even better.
im just sick of it.
of all this trouble dat aint even a problem to begin with.
yea,i got mad here and ther.
but den i stop.
coz i realise its none of my business anymore.
and UR NOT WORTH IT.
cn i strt being faithful and stop lying?
cn i stop being a playa?
cn i ever live off a r/s w/o scandals?
idk.mayb.
letting my guard down isnt exactly my forte.
ive only experienced life fo 16yrs.
idt my decisions made nw are very wise.
like hw u got me all excited.
and den like any other girl aftr th first mit up,
she goes home,
looks forward to th nxt mit up
and strt tinking abt th first ever kiss shes ggna ever experienced with HIM.
loving th wrong person;
u say ily.
but at th time it didnt mean a thing.
i nvr sud hv let u hold me bby.
dats th reason y i strt to c us apart.
we played each other out.
we even nw aye?
i wanted a r/s werby i cud learn sth frm th other.
and lust is put aside.
lemma just rephrase dat.
LEARN STH AND LUST PUT ASIDE.
i dn see dat coming any sooner.*mukee fuhk.
and den YOU.*muke mls nk lyn
y do u tink shes soo nice to u?
hv u ever wondered?
well ofcourse she ggna sucked it up.
she just dnwnnna to hurt u.period.
ure disgusting.**e-yew.
hiding behind layers of secrecy and humour i`ma show u.
i wud be smiling no matter wad happens.
i`ma smile even if my hearts broken a mil times more.
i`ma smile even aftr an arguement with my bestfren.
i`ma smile even tho my results show im a failure.
i`ma smile even wen im not suppose to.
coz th surface matters rite nw.
i`d rather be sick and single rite nw.honestly.
y cnt ya`ll men atleast be like JAMIE FOX.
wise men is a turn on.
forget abt me sang by lil bit.
dedicated to u bby.
WARNING PS:dont interview me abt this post.
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