Draw Your Tomorrow

2010-03-29T03:56:00.001+08:00

Supxz, moved t tumblr.

2009-08-31T04:19:00.000+08:00

2009-08-23T00:44:00.002+08:00

official.

ive had happy memoirs here in bs,
its time fo a chnge.

2009-08-15T20:11:00.014+08:00

my mom was in th kitchen cooking fo her husband.
up above is a total mockery.
*smiles wide*

despite seeing him in sch most  of th days(minus th days when im absent fo no bloody reason)idky,i miss him s much.

aftr olvls i book you permanently okeh?
ilyvv much ya`knw(well,minus those periods where u get on my nerve.)But still,ily alot. 8)
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ohh i made a record fo myself \m/
full sch attendance this week!
waka waka wee haa.
well excluding monday , coz its a public hols.
HAHAHAHAHA.
prolly,nxt wk self-declare day wld be errr,thursday?
&&&&MT resultssssxz coming soon ehhhhh. stressssss loo.
speaking of results daniel fung is sucha a __________.
he told me i got an A2,he checked on9.
tsk,wallaw babi skali joke.
damn miracle luh if i get A2.
i sucked at MT,hw saddening aye.
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ok i wanted t blog abt this last wk but dila being herself sukeeeee sngt procrastinate.
ok.this.is.wht.happen.at.my.neighbouring.area.

1st event ;
i was walking hm w syed then suddenly a mly man(assumming he is one coz skin warna)was standing behind a pillar wall.
tuu tkpe,i got shocked.then realise he was staring straight at sth damn serious luh mukee.
ok then blahhhhhhahhaha i went home.
shocking part was , i was otp w syed when he mention abt th man again.
tu tkpe BUTTT syed said "he was stabbed eh".
*covers mouth,mukee sedih*
wallaw if only i had stayed at th scene slightly 5mins more i wld hv witness everything&prolly get nightmares w cold sweat.
syed showed me th trail of blood th nxt day. ergh.
some said it was a chinese gang w weapons.
S said th man was w a girl.
he went t cc toilet and stuff lotsa tissue t his abdomen area.
th man asked t girl t quickly go or sth&*blink eye* both were no where t be seen.
S told me.

2nd event ;
an indian man(abt mid 20s)under my blk was sitting all alone.
then 2 police officers came.
then my mom was making sucha a fuss.
i looked out my window and then there were 4 officers.
3 secs later he was handcuffed.

3rd event ;
a grp of indians always gets drunks under my blk.
but this time a new member ,a chi man who carries an umbrella w him , was drinking w them.
this chi man is pretty well-known in tpy.
why?coz he goes arnd asking strangers fo 50cents t "eat".
yea riteee. *geling,menyampahxz*
he asked me & rid before on separate occasion.
ok then when he gets enuf he`ll buy those self-roll ciggs.
cibai peh apek.

ok thts nt th point.
this wk i saw him slping at th plygrnd w legs spread apart&his umbrella(which acts as support,yea riteee)
laying unmobile beside him.
thennnnn at night he was drunk.
he kicked th trashbin/spout crap t this other drunk indian fellow/then he amazingly threw his umbrella a side while standing.
while standing you knw?! wallaw cheat pple lo.
act like handicapped only.
&nw ya`ll knw why i emphasize abt his umbrella.
coz it acts nt as his support BUT gaining pity frm pple& eventually resulting t pple giving him money.

then he lay himself on th concrete grnd/toss&turn/gets up.
wallaw dirty fellow sia.
by th time he got up th indian man was gone.
LOL,tht man acherly went away frm him.
i saw everything damn funny.
ok the.best.part.is ;
i was wiping th table but paused coz i knew it was cming.
th chi man gets up/walks unsteadily w his umbrella/3..2..1
*pammmm*.
yup,there was a flight of stairs.
his face hit hard on th concrete grnd.
bonus was he wore spectacles& YESSSS it smashed tgt w his face.
then wht`d i do?continue wiping table/walk t my rm w a sinister smirk.
its just in me.i feel overly delighted at disasters happening t _________ humans&animals. HAHAHAHAHAHAAAA.
soon aftr police came. hw slow,fun`s over boyzzzz.

4th event ;
a couple.an indian teen couple.
well yes they were making out.
its nt like i was staring at them doing it but
i pace arnd my room over a period of 1hr and they we still in th same make-out position when i glance out my window.
and i mean it,they.stayed.in.th.same.position.
no head movements at all , like statue fo display or sth.
they din even give a sams hill abt pple walking pass them.
i wna point it out bcoz its ohh-so-lame.
its like a bucket of saliva being pass frm one t th other.
ergh.

5th event ;
this.is.happening.as.im.typing.
drunk indian fellows are rioting under my blk. \m/
one just got kicked in th face frm a chi guy by th name of david. i knw coz i heard them shouting.
aftr getting kicking david went "ilyvm okeh....."
gay? geez.

so this is everyday life@toapayoh.com
ty fo reading&hv a gdnite.
\m/

2009-08-14T23:12:00.005+08:00

balmain;

ive been craving fo a military jacket since like forever.
i saw a leopard print one = maen.anal.pussy = MUSTTT.own!
oh speaking of which i acherly got myself a leopard print razorbck fo just $35, \m/ ,ak sukee ak sukee.
i bought a silk-green dress ther too fo a pricey price of $69.
HAA,tktau syg duet.
swear its my one of my fav shop@hjL.awesome.
i miss hjL. boooo.
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finallyhh mak ak belikn tomato sauce.
waka waka!

ok bye.
i wna munch on miloooo coco powderxz.

2009-08-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

wht.th.hell.is.up.w.bs ?!!

i knew it i knew it.
sud hv listen t sisi and peng t tumblr last yr.
tsk,wallaw wei kanninabuaycauPEPEK.

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2009-08-13T00:31:00.003+08:00

thank ALLAH fo monday night.
ok so life`s good.
&here i am puffing away in my rm. \m/

"u tgh buat ape syg?"
"i personalising my silent"
LOL.

2009-08-09T20:46:00.002+08:00

im r sick of it.
everyday arguments.

&i think you knw th rest

gd thing it was phone so it means hangin up w/o bothering.
if its in presence,id love t just stomp off like i always do.

2009-08-09T20:46:00.000+08:00

im r sick of it.
everyday arguments.

&i think you knw

2009-08-09T18:48:00.002+08:00

warning: a v frank post tht might&never shud be publish. but im so pissed rite now i wna gratify myself.

i hven had a frank post in a longg longg longg time so this fo you beeyotch.
why th fack did i end up w a major facker.
ure so stupid and dumb.
u piss me off like nth.
and u still dare say #%&$^(&)^&*$%^@#$@#$@ and send me th facking text.
im so pissed off right now.
ure irritating me w ure umpteen text.
i swear i sometimes regret ending up and being stuck w a dumbfack.
KANNINABUAYCAUPEPEK.
i knw u will secretly read this like some bloody loser stalking your gfn.
u even go t pages tht i go,dn deny. _|_ _|_ _|_
pathetic loser.
loser.
stupid la kau.

u better cry yourselve t slp bitch. loser. _|_

&poor bs,youre just gna b th next fs.
wer everyone will abandon this page fo a better spot. stupid stupid. stupid day.

2009-08-07T20:56:00.004+08:00

seriously,
is it just me being ________ OR
has ______ become popular on its own.
ergh,disturbs.

2009-08-02T17:15:00.000+08:00

Happy 1st,
i love you timon.
<33

2009-07-25T14:08:00.004+08:00

racial harmony ;

chongsam w black highcut.
awesome,
5n1,n2,n3,n4.
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i.hate.sch.
ive.been.skipping.sch.
i.dont.wna.study.anymore.
i.dont.desire.fo.anymore.education.
i.wna.quit.
i.dont.even.wna.go.poly.and do all th matherfkin projects fo some matherfkin points t get a matherfkin job in life!
fUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

2009-07-22T14:04:00.000+08:00

there.. fixed.

2009-07-20T01:14:00.002+08:00

bye,i dn feel like typing more aftr th fullstop.

2009-07-11T13:53:00.039+08:00

Be Yourself Day ;

be yerself day was ok-ok.

my cheeky babe,Vanessa in th newspaper.
so is my gayboy,Bryan& my artsy-fartsy bfrn,YAN.
awesome.

h1n1 in beatty like no effect only. tsk,close dwn eh.
k ill update again. in specific details.
somerset here i dtgggg. uh,lame. k bb
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2009-07-08T15:50:00.038+08:00

Parrrtay animalsxz ;

pic 1 ; my shiny hair = <3
pic 5 ; S,looks like some lardy teddy gg fo a dip.
pic 25 ; i just loveeee th bckG. Js otf/S kinda went "knnbuay luh!" LOL
pic 28 ; effect manjadi hoho! <3
pic 31 ; haha cute.
pic 32&33 ; lol,thers kiki&i sibok nk posing/s&k comparing hair length.
pic 35 ; seriously.. BUSTED!
last pic ; NO COMMENTS. LOL

ahh count count which picha is reff t which,hv fun viewing stalkerxz ! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!@$@#%

2009-07-06T16:33:00.015+08:00

i cnt wait fo it!

(behold ; she poses fo BurBerry)

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beautiful life/homecoming/mischa burton ;

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Gianna jun/blood,th last vampire ;

its m18,tsk.

2009-07-06T15:06:00.005+08:00

eventho shyan said it jokingly,
i tot he had a point ther - tht when MJs dead tht everyone start viewing his vids at youtube.
unlike when hes alive,pple barely have him on their minds,they prolly were on fs busy checking testi or at fb doing quizes.
humans.

rip MJ.
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Sumis pool partayyyyyy ;

majority were beatty-ians.
f.m.l-NOT!
a total of 513&counting pichas were snapped on ellas D-90.

met up at tpy interchnge.
went ntuc t get beers/drinks/more beers.
105/bused over t his crib.

surfboard/geting pushed into th pool w/o warning/bckflips/jumps/shouts/fun/lafter/drunk/high/ciggs/ohh sexiness!

ok pichas w ella.
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2009-07-06T12:02:00.014+08:00

Gopals chalet ;

bused t pasir ris/coincidentally jaryl got on th same bus.
k blahh,party party party.
finally by 11pm we cn start eating.
ok,then arif,JOKER,was throwing his food into th drain.
asked him why&he said "i wan t feed "vinod" uh."
"vinod" = cockroches.
Dawood was th only one who din got up when th lipas started t crawl up.
his face = i-don-give-a-damn-abt-some-matherfkin-lipas-i-just-wna-matherfkin-EAT!
ok so rid&i throw th food down our tekak so tht we cud catch up w th last bus.
we ran like its a marathon&halfway thru cabbed t interchnge.
i was hit on th head/my foot got stucked at th side of th road&i almost fall face down in th dirty road.
&thennnn we ran across th field in th moonlight like some awesome indian bollywood scene&again i almost fall.
courtesy t who?syed,who was grabbing my hand w such great force&demand t run at his pace. konek.

okok thenn th best part - LAST.BUS.WAS.AT.EEEELEVEN-THIRTY.PM!? WALLAW WEI!
there i was panting like a mad bitch literally,
soaking w marvelous sweat like niagra falls &&TH LAST BUS WAS AT 1130?! TH TIME WE SET OFF FRM TH CHALET!%$@&
cb,then da baek2 penat i almost fart again.
why?coz rid was 3867389times MY niagra falls when i turn t face him.
t those who knw him as well i assume yall knw hw he will sumhw look like. HA HA HA.

th AM hrs ;

sexe/breakwaters/went bck chalet/smoked/played cards w th boys/drink/eat again/cake/wipe table/A called me a maid/D was hysterically laffin at me/S tot it was th joke of his life.

k,blahh by 4am Sh said we cud cau shin chee.
ok this is funny.
fo th first time in my life i took a ride hm on those bangla lorry. crammed w th boys.
everyones hair was forcefully backed-comb,well,except fo D.
coz his hair was like those army shaven hair.
and tht was th first time in all my life since ive knwn him& heard him swear a FACK! damn.
&sory if my "venom" hair hit pples faces.
cnt help it,straight hair. HAAAAAA.
B looked th most shacked followed by D.
walked t bustop/send pple home/rid sent moi home.
it was 6am and by 9am i had sch. awesome!
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9am;Geog lesson.
10am;physic pract.

shacked.
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Sabiras bday ;

it was a v v v v last min mini surprise party.
and alhamdulillah it was a success.

th day before ;
kiki&i went amk t get th cake.
was praying we wont bump into sab at tpy coz she said shed be ther.
cb,mulot masin. kiki&i was at cheers getting drink then out of a sudden someone tapped my shoulder w such great force.
tot it was some bloody asswipe doing tht t me and i was gna get real pissed skali SABIRA luh.
cb,dumbfounded sia.
she asked me sth&i gave a crappy anws. LOL.
then she looked at th plastic i was holding which had HER cake and i kinda shifted it out of her sight. LOL.
&lucky she went t meet her sista& kiki&dila being themselves laf our way thru. LOL
&kiki&i did th icing since it was plain& since i had sugar icing powder left at hm.

ok then,
Vikky/Dawood/Arif were th first t come.
it was as usual held at skygrdn.
we had th cake at awals hse,tompang fridge.
haha&& jacky cnt stop waving at me&kiki. hw cute.
we.had.fun!
sab was smashed w a cake on her face. HAHAHA.
2 vids were recorded.
dozens of pichas snapped but ill just upload some. heeee.

2009-06-21T00:06:00.012+08:00

happy 7teen Galvin.

attempted 7 trys on th word 'promises'.
by th 8th i was finallyhh satisfied.
bought mom 2bday cakes.
bused t eastcoast.
th pit was far and dearest posse(s) had a 130hr walk t G-69,
while my superflybitch hailed a taxi.
why?coz he was concerned i might nt be capable enuf t walk frm D-spot,bitch.
first taxi ride was FREE-hee,next made me feel like im in a rat-race.
fo th first time everhh on tht day, I.LIKE.TAXI-rides.

gorgeous food(s)&drinks were available.
Rid,as usual,was eating like a bloody hungry ghost&
din even bother t atleast put th bagpack he was carrying down.
ok then an indian girl went up t him&wished him happy bday!
wallaw knnbuay pepek sia tu pompan.
she almost made me fart maximum level luh.
cb,joke of th day uh.

ok i hv seafood allergies,mom told me before,avoid eating BUT dila being dila NEVER was born t listen t pple&thts th reason rashes comeabt easily scarring red patches here&ther.
ok so at th pit i got hungry too&&&i saw dozens of crabmeats! fav,fav,fav.so it was half-ed covered w my saliva when rid snatch it away frm me,argued&put it in his mouth.there goes my food,pfft -.-

th AM hrs ;

strolls by th beach/lovely baisers <3/sing/guitar/bob bbual mcm bpk2/faire l`amour/sofian mat jiwangxz/arif is till th joker/faisal is pretty,pretty/dawood smiles!/vikky talks alot lately 8)/headstand/piggybck(s)/kila sicked/bangla drunk/tubs is sucha swtheart/precious memoirs everhh t date <33.

by 6am,some started gg off.
by 7am dawood,vikky,arif,me,rid finallyhh went off.
we decided t take th bus.
why?coz rid no hv ka-ching coz he spent it on liquor&
which i got no share of -.-
ok so i tot i might DIE/MATI by th time we reach th bustop 130hr later BUT lucky fo us vikky wanted t try a shortcut&we made it&bused t tpy.
dawood was th first t k.o upon landing on th cushion seat on th bus HAHA!
Rid send me home&by 9am i was in bed.
i grin a satisfied grin before making fo th beeline.

th breeze,th landscape,th pple.
i knw fo sure it was th most beautiful morning ive ever experienced.
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987 lifes a bitch(!);

c.m.i luh.
tdo at 9am/cudden r get up/skipped.
met up sab&rid at 7pm.
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2009-06-17T02:39:00.005+08:00

saturday;

i started my day at 3pm. pretty cranky,uh-somee.
text S,mandi,went over t cc.
manage t complete 50% of those bloody hmwrks tht doesnt have any direct relation t my future job. YEY!

S,made my day somehow.
she was tryna describe th place she went t study th other time and end up saying "tmpt yg tht time kite MAEN ngn YAN tu" instead. funny girl.

cau at 9pm.

eat,organise stuff,got bored.
went out at 1am,went hm at 6am.
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sunday;

it was a self-force-wake-up-thing. mom was IRRR-RETATING.
went over t punggol at 12pm.
purpose?tuition,uh predictable luh,i got slpy&slpt till 6pm. fabulous.
i vomitted in public at sengkang,courtesy t long bus rides.
right smack when th clock strikes 630pm on th dot,i went t watch Geisha.
i like Geisha(s) so Yea.
then NEWS 5 TONIGHT came abt.
i watched it w N&we concluded it was th BEST news everhh.
they mentioned abt sheeps dying under a tree bcoz of lightning&hw a hog might be a lucky sth sth.
and N went "mcm mane tkde swine gini." LOL sey LOL
followed by incredible tales.
boohoo,Shafiq was a kitty-cat.
N was otp&i went otn. got DC,bitch.
so went out t play w pupi&had a cup of hot milo.
pupi was v hyper&ohh-too-cute so i slapped its lil fury body&pinch it.wht did it get in return?a BITE.
haha,cute.
called anak R t kill time.
he wanted t eat&asked t call bck.
i said ok&th next thing i knw its 12nn. HAHAHA.
i wasted a day here.
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monday;

th rest of th day was a drap.
SR picked me up at sengkang,bused home.
he was being a complete FACKER.
i wrestled him in th bus&he scrap my wrist&all my beadies came off.
i almost had myself stucked under th seats while looking fo it.&at hub ntuc it fell off again.
dang,it was so cute hw SR`s ftpss mates help me look fo it.
HAHAHA. we looked like a bunch of retards.
went over t mac,had ice-cream,went t fix my beadies&it came off again.went over t my place&finally we fixed it.
ohh-someeeeee.
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tuesday;

received a text frm S at 130pm.
mandi went out t meet her at lib.
teman her mkn at F&s.
went skygrden k blahh she went home.
went over 44.R picked me up.
vikky,dawood&th usuals were ther.
it was th funniest match everhh.
630pm followed R home blahh,drap.
i did my hmwrks. uh-huh yeah yeah.

and im soo sorry darling it aint happening.
so so sory&i told you ive alrd had plans this friday.
regardless,i love you s much babe.
HAPPY ADVANCE BDAY K.

ok booyah i nd t slp.
i got dental appointment tmr! yey yey!
i like th smell of dental clinics. HAHAHAHA.
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i just love t rub it in.
&oh i dream of YOU. <3

2009-06-12T19:28:00.018+08:00

LAST WK/SUPERDUPER-LONG POST.

Sunday;

went esplanade lib t revise MT.
hell,i took sucha a longg time t memorise th peribahase(s).
got distracted.why?coz Syedboplek was reading some SEX mag.
LOL. k,no.
went Bugis on search fo tie dyes fo galfrens.
cb din find. pissed.
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monday;

MT olvl paper.

turned in early th night before eventho i aint tired.
ckg adviced us t do so&she said shed pray fo us.
i cnt slp even so.think it was those nervous feeling tt distracted me frm shutting up my eyes.
i got dwn frm my upper bunk bed&told my mom i cnt slp.
&she said 'bace doa`'.
&believe it or nt i was dumbstrucked.
i felt disgust togher w guilt&shame - ive neglected prayers.
expressoinless,i prayed till i slp.

paper only starts at 830am tht morn.
saw balan&raushyan otw&came in w them.
darn,i was early.
went t canteen&some others were revising like intensive.
YAN took his paper ALONE in th idk-wht-rm coz he was dwn w fever. boohoo,lonely purrr.
i went t th usual place w sab&start revising.
soon aftr shyan&SYED NAFIS joined.
&then shyan wanted t get kamus&asked nafis t accompany him
&like some bloody gay nafis went 'nanak! nanak!' LOL
but he eventually went anw&told me flirtatiously
'u,jagekn barang i k'. i gave him a lazy smile.
he came bck soon aftr& said 'u,barang i mane?' when it was
right smack in his face. JOKER luh.

&&&&finallyhh person aftr person started t went up.
my shit was at th tip of my asshole. damn nerve-wrecking.
idk hw many times i recited ayat AL-Kursi&said bismillah.
i had no smile on my face aftr th paper.
oh well,tawakal.

aftr paper kiki went hm.sab&me went f&s t eat.
i was so darn hungry i told sab i cud eat a horse.
gahh bedek. only halfway thru,i alrd cnnt finish wht i ate.
sad,i din hv my "tong sampa" ther w me.
while looking fo seats,saw some jumpy chij girls - SUFYAN&IZFA.asked them abt paper&they gave a thumbs up.
HOHO!
eat,drink,random talks,laf.
then RUBYs came.Miss Ding was being vvv smiley.
HAHA.went hm straight&slpt like a hog.
woke up&planned t r start studying intensive BUT failed.
got a text frm Aubrey&my sister is sucha bollocks.

1050pm;
she burst into my rm while i was doing geog notes.
she went "oh tu roti kau eh.ak tktau.i woke up this morn
and tht was th only thing i saw,i din even brush my teeth t eat it.Tu la,laen kali write a letter t inform me".
blimey.
ok so earlier tht morn i ate 1quad of MY bread mom
prepared fo me. i dn usually eat in th morn so i kept
th rest in th oven&when i came bck frm sch it was GONE?!
wallaw bloody asswipe luh aisyah. NO life fella.

&she was watching erlin montel&re-act suhaimis line.
suhaimi was suppose t console erlin nt t eat so much.
"erlin,da brape kali abg cakap,kalau nk mkn,JGN mkn srg."
fulamak ccb.

midnite;
&then she volunteered t buy bread&instead of giving her
money t buy,my mom sediakn diri atas sofa&went t slp.
LOL

Aisyah mat Zain;
she went onto YOUTUBE&watch cat videos.
"I,I like cats but i just dnno hw t touch them.but i like them." =.=
she showed me a couple of vid as well.
all th same,abt kids.
some korean kid dancing,a boy saying bluuuu-dehhh,
another one 'charlie bit my finger'.
they were v cute tho.ive been putting it on replay.
ohhhh-someeeee.

rplied Aubreys text,called up Syed&went t bed.
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Tuesday;

tot of gg for a run BUT i overslpt.
biasa laah,hog ma.
called up Syed&last min plan t go sentosa.
we were so unprepared.
i got burned like badddass.cau at 4pm.
th shower was packed so pegi mampos i just showered in th open area&i bet th minas in ther had fun staring at my body while i took off my piece one by one.HAHAHA.
then slowly onebyone they decided(finallyhh)t just shower outside too coz th queue aiseyman cmi luh.

then bused t hawker centre,ate CHICKEN RICE.
went vivo then page one then bugis t search fo tie dye AGAIN.
CB,it was a total diff store.
i guess ill go make my own.
so trained home. shagged.

th biggest fatass BUG ever - AISYAH MAT ZAIN.
"damn it luh,my butt itching.u think if i scold my butt it would stop itching" =.=

121am;
i was tryna slp.why?coz facking hell ive got sch th nxt day.
&ther was my sister shaking her head vigorously dancing t some bloody korean girlband. aiseyman.
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wednesday;

english fo 2hrs in th hall w th 4es&5ns.
packed like sardines in there,gd thing aircon was on.
ms S whined on stage. gahhh.
had a break. i was eating&bryan came round.
i asked him if he wants some&
bryan being himself said "u feed me ar.w your mouth"
-.- perv.
had maths. v slpy,mate stim maximum level.
cranky mode.
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thursday;

went t sch at 8am
&surprisingly i wasnt cranky.
infact,i was hyper.(haha,i had my reasons why *winkwink*)
then finally saw ms J,pale.
&&mcm biasa she was (cmon beatty-ians say it w me)PISSED.
HAHA. schedule got mixed up or sth.
so instead of eng fo 5hrs,we had a trade of chemistry
fo just 2hrs in th AVA. gd deal huh.

then ther was a time whereby ms j ran out t go t th toilet.
&&th funny part was YAN ran out as well secs later,like some bollywood indian scene.LOL.why?coz he wanted t puke.
i was literally LAFFING MY ARSE OFF W SABIRAH.
so when YAN came bck,he was like tryna wear those sick face look BUT totally FAILED.why?coz nafis kirem him shoes t pass t shyan.&like his cover t be sick is totally busted.LOL

had a break at 1030.
went out t get food w sab,yan,uma,V.
had chem again.

went over rids place aftr class.
met up sabira at 5pm. kiki came soon aftr.
studied at cc. sab went off first&kiki went home at 10pm.

rushed over t stadium.
lepak w sch soccer captain. smoked,slacked,blahhh.
S din rply so head hm.
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Friday;

chemistry followed by maths.
BUT skipped maths,took pyp frm mrChan&went over kikis crib.
as usual,i got slpy.
crammed on th couch&fo a sec my leg almost kick Nash`s frens head. LOL.
so went t slp in kikis rm till 3plus.
head home,mandi,went t meet up Sabirawr.
surprisingly she was like under my blk. LOL.
so she wanted t study so i suggest we head t 44.
rid,dawood,vikky,kartik& th usuals were all ther as well.
at 7+ they came by&fulamak! hapak nyee fuiiyo.
best ehh sab.
then rid went home t bathe.
we got hungry so head t central t get food.
LOL,rid was like a lost puppy looking fo me.

sat at entertainment mac&brainstorm abt sabs bday party.
blah went home.
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saturday;

err,sumpa i cnt recall.
asked SYEDBOPLEK,tu lagi satu denggxz bgi stupid info.
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sunday;

slept th entire day.
&got a text frm A.
A: 'may i hv th honour t dance w you tonight.'
me: 'sorry i aint gg.'
A: 'okey,but remember i will miss you fo 2wks!'
HAHA joker luh.

skipped st James. no ka-ching.
&somebody clearly din like me gg,suck cock luh. -.-

so meet up rid&co instead.
tetekpump was ther&she cudden take a joke.typical.
police comeby.why?coz unfortunately somebody called them up and we were suspected of gambling. LOL.
actual fact,we were. but i guess i was ladyluck we werent caught.
&its like my 4528964574times getting screen alrd.
da mcm routine gitu. LOL
i din had any ID on me,only 6bucks&
hse keys&th police asked why.
idky i just laf in his face.
i mean thers no law stating i sud bring it everywhere.
loser.
then he asked whts my relation w th rest being tht im th only girl.
Lmao,i pointed t rid&wanted t say 'my husband'.
but tot otherwise,policemen dont hv a sense of humour anw.
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monday;

(yup,i wan this shirt like badass. credits tumblr)

went sentosa AGAIN.
damn im burned. ouh-someee.
mom was kind enuf t prepared food,went at 11am.
blahh sit,swim blahh cau at 3pm.
ok this time i shower in th shower.
i had shampoo&bodywash.
so while waiting a mina talked t me.
why?coz of my smiley piercing.
she was like staring yaw. so i looked bck&she smiled.
she looks kinda friendly&i figured mina tk mina pegi mampos
and i smiled bck.

went home unpacked. went bck dwn t slacked.
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tuesday;

lucky fo me i din chnge my mind t go t sentosa on tues.
due t some reasons. HAHAHAHA.
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wednesday/thursday/friday;

stupid days. i wasted em.
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alrite i wna get some zzz now.
425am now&i started at 8pm.
wooh! but this ezen th longest post.
bcktrack ive had a more longer post then these.
whts it abt? go figure stalkers.

2009-06-06T11:27:00.035+08:00

LONG POST.

thursday;

skipped sch. hoho.
70% din turn up as well. JOKE! sumpa klaka.

AHH MAN U & BARC
ZEROOOOOOOOOO IS T TWOOOO(!)
*jumps* lol,swear punye swear ak bahagie.
WAHLAU ckg fauziah like damn happy as well.
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friday;

ms chen arr nk step mane punye angry woman sia
coz attendence mcm cb on thursday.
hoho,tk takot.
hell,some of us were frank.
"i tired/i v lazy go fo GEOG/lazyyyyyy". cb.
class was v slack,din do much.
ms J din turn up fo sch fo like,2days. woow.
din get bck results,
why?coz im th last of th last in th level. ha ha ha.
my mother was forced t come on a SATURDAY MORN.

sch ended at 10,went t take height&weight,kamus&
went over rids hse.why?HSA punye pasal.
rid got slpy,went t bed&i was left w his
comp fo self entertainment. awesome.
4574749836mins went by&i got slpy as well.
so pegi mampos,adila being adila anihw sit on top of
rid just t satisfy her slping desire.

&while at amk a funny/huh-ing incident happened:
a man was otp then suddenly another random man
came up t him&pat his shoulder w a smile&walked off happily.
like wht fack kn?!
th otp man went 'sape ni' *mukee skeptical*.
manusiaOHHmanusia.
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saturday;
went t sch.why?coz i had extra class fo MT.
ckg came late.i was cranky coz i was slpy.
so adila being adila treated th canteen as her bedrm&
lie dwn t slp on th bench.
actual timing:9am.
ckg came:930am.why?coz she was having th time of her life eating Mickey D`s breakfast.

10am - my mak came t sch.reason? miss chen sroh.
i went t fetch her at th gate in th midst of
MT lesson.
BUT she cnt come in.WHY?!!coz th security guard said tht ms chen wasnt in sch&so my mom cnt come in.
puki tiang!?@#%#$^
i was automatically pissed off at th guard.
wahlau,my mom came all th way then cnnt come in?!
i ALWAYS get defensive when its got t do w my mom.
i swear i cudden accept it,
took out my phone and dialled ms chens digits.
yall dn r wna knw wht shit i shouted into th phone t ms chen.
wallaw.

th talk:
finally mom cud come in. my anger pon rede.
she sat dwn at th foyer and took out nailclipper
frm her bag&start t cut her nails. gahh random.
ok so aftr 253463mins chen came.
showed my mom th results. f9,f9,f9..
hahahaha.
chen asked qns T MY MOM,BUT IM TH ONE ANWERING IT.
then mschen asked my mom several umpteen times
if she had any qns &AGAIN I ANS IT.
"my mother wont hv q wan.she take all feedbck given."
"u sure?"
"i knw her la.she just nods thts all." lol.
then lastly,mom had t do a survey.
wah,tht part i wna swear profanities alrd.
i knw my mom,she takes up all th time t just ans a qns.
wht more a survey.
then thers was this qns:is th time&place appropriate?
i force my mom t tick STRONGLY DISAGREE.
&she went "tknk laa,jahat sngt laa."
sumpa i wanted t snatch tht pen frm her&complete tht survey fo her which eventually i did towards th end.
why?coz my kesabaran was running thin.
ohh and kikis mom came aftr tht.
BUT her mom was v funny.
kiki said "mak ak buat tuu survey punye cpt." lmao.

"picnic":
ok then ms fauziah said we had t go up t tamil
cls.why?coz they invited us fo a feast.
so all 5n crammed togthr&united. haha so fun.
and yan went "eh melayu msk je mcm terang skit".
i smacked him&nafis went round my bck&slapped my hair.
for wht?god knws wht.

swensen:
aftr tht went bck t study in th canteen.
&we kinda hv been playful&asked ckg t give us a treat.
which she eventually agreed t.
they were like 6 of us.7 plus ckg.
so we all crammed into her car&went t swensen.
lol! ni kalau ade TP mati lo.

all th plates went round except fo Raushyan. nabeh.
so separated:
some went t mug,kiki took cam,i went t get cigg frm rid.
went home,last min outing w kiki.

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sunday;

went over t esplanade lib t get some sch wrk done.
babbabblahh mls nk recall.

2009-05-30T16:27:00.002+08:00

i am superduper SHACKED these dayzzz. urgh!

k,im gg out w kiki! yeah yeah! finallyhhh biatch.
hoho.

2009-05-28T16:42:00.003+08:00

Sometimes,ALLAH breaks your spirit t save your soul.
Sometimes,HE breaks our heart t make us whole.
Sometimes,ALLAH allows pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes,ALLAH send us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes,ALLAH allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
Sometimes,ALLAH takes everything away from us so we can value everything HE gave us.

2009-05-28T03:03:00.008+08:00

AGAIN,i dnt even wna blog but wtf.

melay,melay,melay. hoho,best!

AND tmr I AM BANGGE T SAY I AM NT ATTENDING SCH!
eh wait,i think th whole of 5n3 wont turn up.
haha haha hahaaaa.
everyone was asking every other person today,
'ehh u coming tmr/eh u wna come?' lol joke siakxz.
MT olvl like 5/4 days away lor &still we`re nt serious.
hahaaaa!

pyp aftr another.
best or wht.
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sat:
at 10pm we headed t mac.
it was drive thru.
cb,mr H buat klaka unintentionally. wtf.
we wanted mcflury oreo which IS TH ORIGINAL ONE
(we,th regulars all knw tht rite,well except him)
so when th order was shown
onto th A4 screen 'Mcflurry oreo',
mr H w much confident said,
'err,excuse me i want th original one nt w oreo.'
aisayman! i din even hold bck,i screamed
&laf&screamed&laf. knn,joke ehh joke!

aftr tht we went sumwer,
idk wer but wth.
while i was too busy hog-ing out th fat foods,
helmi&"darlingggg" wrestled w one another
&helmi kept irritating me by saying,
'arrrgh,im using one hand,haiiiyak!' k,wtf.
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sun:

punggol;tuition.
lol,shafiq was being lame.
he talks gay.
he lafs gay-fully.
idky he keeps checking himself out in th mirror. haa!
&at one point he collided w th door while talking. gahh.
sher came over &pupi went home t mommy. aww.
auntie send me home&met up Syed t eat at mickey D.
blahhh,sumpa da tkle recall.
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mon:
sch mule 9am.
supposely,we should have an hr w form tcher,
BUT ms chen being ms chen menghilangkn dirinya enta ke mane.
wtf,everytime knw.
pentengkn GEOGRAPHY die ar tu,sibok naaa ngn pokok.

1030-3pm,MT.
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tue:
satu; Ckg suhaila& some blooody soul piss me off real bad.
dua; lessons got too bored i actually look thru th tchers.
tiga; Syed picked me up frm sch,
empat; went over his hse t get th lagu-lagu,
lima; eat,eat,eat &then fell aslp on his bed.
enam; he snored,got annoyed blahhaa ak mls nk recall.
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wed:
kes pakse bgun;
i almost wailed like a baby when mom woke me up.
lethargic.
at 645 i start bathing.
i struggled t tie my hair,my socks were missing,
my hp was out of sight&
tht almost cause me 'th white area'
&then i missed th traffic light.
cudden catch up w kiki cause my legs wasnt
coperating much.
almost got knock dwn by a red car.

at th traffic i got too kanchong i acherly talked t myself.
AND THEN,t my left some soul was nearing&waving.
angela arr,walk like nyonya kpo sia.
her spastic fingers like pondan sia.
mukee terlampau bedak lagik.

i told her i dnwna be late& so she ran like
some bloody pondan &i had t catch up while laffing hard.
by th time i reach sch i was suffering t get my breathings right.

ohya,and i was sumhw glad i was abit late coz
th pakcik open th bck gate while those who came earlier had
t walk all th way t th main one. hoho!

recess sejam lo.
ms J les - mate ak sumpa stiming,ni kes ngntok maximum level.
mr chan les - self-study.

went f&s aftr sch,cb tht makcik rugget sia mkn.
make me lose all my appetite.
knn buay,tngk tgn die begerak je bole munta. ergh.

went hm teros.
took a nap& err strangely i dream of YOU.
you took my hp&mp3&vanished. haha!

wooh,i just realised its v wordy.
haha,whts a girl t do.

2009-05-23T03:27:00.003+08:00

summer ; (L).sex.magic

summer love = boys + love etc

uhooh,here i go again gg gaga fer lui this time.
ohh boy,
lets have some fun,
this beat is sick,
i wna take a ride on yer disco stick.
hoho(!)

2009-05-23T02:21:00.008+08:00

Nafa ;

gosh,it felt so gd t run.
hoho.
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i din went t chalet.
ahh wht fack la.
bodo.

223am,im bored&idk wht t do.

youre probbly drinking beer at th chalet
w/o me& building up tht fuglybelly rite now.
youre probbly senget like you said you would.
youre so gna have a hangover.

2009-05-21T22:47:00.019+08:00

F9 for all subjects.

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she stands so strong on her own.
sucha pity hw th other party pulls her down with just words.
sucha pity.
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wed ;
skipped sch.
i swear i was facking vibe-less so
i slept like a facking hog.
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tue ;
original plan was t meet up Hog early2 in th morn,
BUT dila being dila besakn taik mate.
woke up at nn,on9.
a fickle-minder,finallyhhh at 3pm i made a decision
t meet up w ella,sab&uma at vivo.
trained dwn t vivo blahhh,ella head off first&ak mls nk elaborate.

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thurs ;

(acherly,i dn even knw why sab snap a picha of my hair)

assembly was STUPID.
it pissed me off enormously.
wht fack(!) urgh.

C.WRITING WAS TH WORSE LESSON I HAVE EVERHH
ATTENTED IN ALL TH FIVE YRS IN BEATTY.
CHEEEEBYE LUH.
this one pissed me off th worse.
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my sister is a v happy kiddo.
s: eh ak ade bju baru,*takes out,shows me*
a new addition t th family.
m: abe happy.
s: u dnt understand dila.

WHAT TH FACK.
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2009-05-19T01:18:00.003+08:00

showing her tsunami;

ok skrg kn 118am.
ak kn da start mls nk lyn org.
&i wna talk/brag publicly.
i figured like its better rather than forcing my voice
on someone t listen me when they probbly dn give a damn.
lol!
ive been really lazy t pick up my retarded-soo-last-season-phone each time it rings/vibrates.
and at msn ill start being th hyper one and then slowly like a mental killer im experiencing a severe sense of humour failure.
i mean i like t laf but at this timing
mood like like,ahh idk th word ar.
i like pple t text but i guess my fingers tot otherwise.
itll get tired and eventually neglecting calls/msges.
ahh,lame alasan. wht th %^&%^*& sia !?.
apologies t those who become my victim(s).
urrgh!
ak nk rokok!
ohya my sister has been like an addict,
asking me fo ciggs&looking desperate.
geez,wht addict sisterxz.

we kinda have a thing fo weird songxz fyi.
ok,such a fyi tk perlu.
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ohh hw random,you said hello. ohh well.

ok,so got some bloody excuse. ahh i was dying. wtf.
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2009-05-18T23:31:00.007+08:00

BLK 173C punggolF ;

tuition on wkends now.
my tutor,has nicer,straighter,silkier,fabulous,softer
hair than me. wallaw.
ohya its like a mop. lol!
but my hair is straight still,wht fack dila.

&pupi BITE me. <3
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MATHS ;
finally i understood why th FACK,
mths p2 is a 230hrs paper.
well,anw last fri i sat fo tht bloody paper.
i drew coconut tress AGAIN.wht fack.
i had no idea why i even came fo tht paper when i din even bother t try.
ok,well i did do some.
th graph - seems do-able. so i plot here ther and vuuuualahhh(!),
i got some bloody handicap NIKE shape.
so like aftr papers its like so human la t start talking abt it.
so i was talking t Viona then she said her graph looked like some nike thingy.
then u knw hw when we get sth same we`d be like 'ahhh ahhh,yes yes.' then nod our heads vigorously coz sumhw we find it funny&mule giggling.
so when th usuals came we talked abt graph shapes again.
so yan`s facking retard respond made me grab his arm tightly and shake him like a polariod piccha.wtf.

m:eh so hw yer graph look like?
y:*walks steadily w a smile* why is everybody talking abt graph ni,i din even do anything. wht th fack.
aiseyman,i cudden hold myself bck t tht ans BECAUSE I HAVE A HUMONG-GHOST SENSE OF HUMOUR! LMFAOOTF. _______________________________________________________

mak,adila mat *name bpk*,syg mak! ;
i was away fo 3days& yey!
mommy helped me clean up my entire room.
so i came home w SyedR at 10plus a moment ago& saw some familiar stuff at th lift area.
then i realised my mom had cleaned my room fo me.
now,it looks clean,neat&dustfree.
ok,awesome nw my sensitive nose wont get flu easily.
ha ha.
andand my 'happy 17th bdae' banner frm dear friends is nicely displayed at last!
ok,acherly mom ask me hang th banner on th window so like curtain she say. joke!

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k,ak nk type in melay.
kakak ak tanye mak ak ni:
'eh mak ape pancaindra ah?'

wuuh,mak ak peh respond mocking sia.

'*eyes widen* masyaallah kau tk tauuuuu??tsk,tsk,tsk.'
cb like a replica of hw kikis adek respond. lol!
ok,i din knw wht it was either.
then i went t ask my cousin,knn she went 'huh? ape tuu sey.'
geez.
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2009-05-16T02:51:00.005+08:00

Nur Sabirah was pestering me while i was bloggin
coz she wanted t read and im like taking sucha longg time.
so she keeps asking and asking.
and then finally when i said im done she type no words
but just a smiley emoticon.
haha! kwn ak CUTE.
then she says 'kau nk campak cempedak kat ak ehh,
kau tunggu nxt wk,ak campak DURIAN kat kau'.
knn buay lmfaootf! aiseyman,bole imagine sak.
then she went on t say 'k nxt wk bole cite2,mate ak da steam da,melayang melayang,ok bye.'
shes acherly v v v funneh ladies&gens.

ahh tht reminds me yan likes t use th word 'imagine' in convos and even used it at prelims oral and he almost told off th tchrs just cuz of tht particular word. lol! and fo mly oral i assume he said 'ckg baaaayangkn..' haha.
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315am ; so now syedR on9.

at msn he spelt DAD as ADA. wtf! *laffing*
then he said sth&
then i said 'gay sia rid u say tht.'
and this made me crack idky :
'gay tk gay g mampos.'
and then he got sot cause a pichaa cnt appear in msn as Dp.
wtf.
&then i said sth rude and he went 'ahh kn..
smpi kene babi peh setan sia'.
eh rid bbual maintain eh mcm bapak bapak.wallw.
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eh mcm type bnyk ehh nari. wallw.
k mate da steaming.
slamat!
and i like my bckG v much,feels so CRAYOLA. haha!

2009-05-16T01:21:00.024+08:00

and when you smoke,

youll top it off w liquor,
and when you have a deep interest fo piercing(s),
tatoos might be closeby.

i nvr really had a thing fo long hair. uhh,hassle.
11/11 ; ill shave th sides.
i need new boxer(s),madison P,industrial P,horizantalBrow P,lip P,widen earlobe(haaa,ma is gna flippp outhh lol),sony a900,a Barbie deck(ahh,k tk).

woosh,so long neh brag ooh. release seh.
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eeergh,i hate it tht i cnt recall much
anymore. urgh.

well,anw i reallyreally have a thing fo random language.
feels like magic,yea i knw gilerr tk make sense.
but it just cracks me up huge and ull see me
jumping and screaming like a facking retard coz

i hv a huge sense of humour.

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re-blogged frm tumblr :
(credits t tumblr user(s),uh cnt rem exact name)

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233 am ; now adila msn w sabiRAWR.

sab klaka.
shes at punggol,ruma abg.RUMA ABG TAU!
she said this and it sumhw crack me up.
"dari tadi ak crk messenger,atlast baru dpt."
bbual mcm makcik makcik sia.
then i asked her 'blk aper ar?'
she said 'ak pon not sure,tau dtg tapi tktau blk.'
wht fack?! sab mintak kene campak cempedak sak.wallaw.

k,syg kau.
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2009-05-14T23:00:00.007+08:00

i don even wna blog,wtf.
my email is soo long its sucha hassle.
my keyboard letters are disappearing.
wht th helloooo sia.
im kinda feeling like a total retard.
im not doing ANYTHING in particular right.
haaaaa,oh well.
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told yan nature calls ima go,he had t say 'have fun'.
lol.
ily man. hoho.
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ok,i wna own a bunny.
i was googling fo it like ystrday then th results kinda
pissed me off.
it showed some bloody FATass RABBITS LOOKING ALMOST LIKE A FACKINGGGGGGGGGGG FURY DOG!
wht in th sams hill was #&$*%*#^#&$^*$% ! urgh.
geez,im getting all snappy now.
babi. i nd music.
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then tmr ak ader maths paper.
a fackinggggg 230hr paper!
wth am i suppose t do fo th next 2hrs?!
by th time th paper finish my urine might froze,
nail turning blue,teeth hardcore cluthering,body exp inner vibrations.
i realise max is 2hrs fo my body.
th rest of th time ill get flu. wtf.
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wkends ive got a studyDATE w AhmadSyafiq Harris.
i wna eat yer moms lasagnia!
millyh said i look 'artsy fartsy'.
wed,mayb mayb mayb a date w mileyhhhh th mills fo th 2nd.
ahh i got sch. wallaw.
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idk.
it kinda bring you t another dimension of thoughts.
too soon.
just dont fade.

and th journey begins.
haaaa.

and i dreamt of you.

2009-05-14T01:47:00.000+08:00

inspirationless.
vibeless.

2009-05-14T00:37:00.001+08:00

<3
cnt wait aftr olvls,i wna kick ass w moi posse.

2009-05-14T00:37:00.000+08:00

<3
cnt wait aftr olvls,i wna kick ass w moi posse.

2009-05-11T21:27:00.004+08:00

i love my mother v much i could tear when she gave me tht look ystrday.
bought mom a cake.
thts all i cn afford.
ily ma,happy mothers day! 8)
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in th spent time of 3hrs,
half th pack was smoked outahh.
unsteady;kawasaki cudda knocked me dwn.
now,my shares done tggl nk crush je tu pack.

i nd moreee.
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idk.
confusion.happy.bitter.

th accusations ; i swear i sud thank yall.
i shut my mouth when u told me.
and look wht facking shit!? urgh,ure just SICK.

my mom married a man BLINDLY. urgh,another one.
whts ur motive seriously,wna drive us apart?!$@#%#
tht was a BIG-Ass accusation.
unbelievable immature creature.

i was considering RP or TP.
well,if i cn make it tht is.
so i asked mom,if she could pay th fees.
she said a straight NO.
followed by 'hw am i gna find tht much money'.
awesome huh.
told my bestfren abt this and she said can make it.
i had faith but turns out otherwise.
percobaan hidup.
i haven been praying.
i nd HIM currently.

my eyes are getting itchy and wet and i got a boogie.
wht a wkend.

i need t listen t TAKBIR.

2009-05-07T21:56:00.002+08:00

decided not t head home.

mt paper - ok.

went kikis place.

eat,watch ryan on mtv,alil of nat geo

and i slept like a f pig on her bed.

woosh,sumpa best.

tmr chem,mcm biasa dila tk blaja anything.

2009-05-06T23:27:00.004+08:00

already th day was upsetting enuf.
eng paper almost teared me up.
and now this.
well,YOU CAN GO PLAY YOUR BALLS ALL YOU WANT.
YOU HAVE ALL TH TIME IN TH WORLD T DO SO.
AND IM SOOOOOO SORRY I INTERRUPTED.
YOU WONT HEAR FRM ME ANYTIME SOON. I SWEAR.
I KNEW YOU WOULD SOMEHOW READ SO RIGHT THIS SECOND
MIGHT AS WELL MOVE ON!
FUCKING CB YOU BASTARD,YOU CAUSED THESE TEARS!
ARE YOU EVEN WORTH MY TIME.
THANKS FERRRRRRRRRR TH TIME!

Arghhh! f pms. f urself dila.

2009-05-06T00:55:00.009+08:00

kakak ak maen psp. haaaaaaaaaaaa.
'ehhehh lajunyeee.'
'ehh babi! kuang aja.'
'ehh ak first ak first!'
'eh amak! babi arr polis.'

2009-05-05T23:37:00.005+08:00

'90 pple got infected by SWINE flu and everybody wants t wear a mask.
A million pple have AIDS and no one wants t wear a condom'.
(via sisi`s - athymia.tumblr)
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(lol)

monday:
errr,practical.
ak ader skit biol.
again i was holding T.tube w subs A in my hand,
then at th same time i wanted t put on th googles,
andand th nxt thing i knew subs A berterabo onto my shirt.
gahh,i laf at myself.
did physics first&&screw up w th digitscxzc!
chem`s kale-kale in test tube made me soo happy tht
i went t do th same experiment TWICE since ive got 35mins more t go. hehehehe.
at 830pm adila mat zain got bored so went over kiki.
read 7teen mag and went home. kengkadang dila no life.
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tuesday:
ss ak tk blaja.
so jawapan standard arr - opinions&repetition after repetition. best ehh best ehh.
maths was fo 2 FACKING hrs!
and i was sitting ther watching my nails turn purple,
teeth cluttering,body uncontrollably shaking &
all i could think of was my BLADDERxz.
dila arr write anyhow numbers je fo th answers.
atleast 1 mark pon jadi looo.
i gave a SPECIAL artistic answer fo th final qns;
i drew a coconut tree w a stickman saying 'sos!'.
gahhhhhahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
ohh well. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
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haha,saw a monkey in sch today.
k,tmr english.
its 12midnight&mommy ask me t buy roti.
yupyup,my hse comes alive at this hr.
kakak ak tgh maen psp ngn telekong!
ki,u reading this?! lol.
need for speed most wanted lagik.
k,dwag.

2009-05-04T00:33:00.017+08:00

(lmfao)

okey so im STILL vibe-less.

im pretty much here&ther in a MESS.
sci pract in afew hrs - ive nt revise ANYTHING.
when mid-yrs a month away i panicked like some bloody dinosapien gna get extinct.
&&now when its just hrs away and i like it,no wait,i LOVE it tht ive not studied anything.
th motivation,LOST. hahahoho.
mayb i sud just quit sch like sisi and rot at home fo a yr w depression in mind,jobless,ka-ching-less. orOR sign up w th arm forces w abg and learn driving w him. hahahahahahaha.
and i find all tht funny.
eh ki,sumbatkn pokok kat dlm mulot ak. lol.
k,dila giler bayang skit arrarr.
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overdue pichas. th rest gna be at multiply,divide,subtraction,addition. hahaha,k rubbish.

rid mate melayang tk tentu arah.

abe muke H.

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monday:
okeh,lets see.
pissed off even before jejakkn kaki in sch.
but alhamdulillah it was a FUN day.
pract was endless lafter.

situation:
i was heating a test-tube w th holder thingy.
then kiki said sth.
i turn to her then suddenly felt sth wet at my leg.
i turned arnd staring at th boy behind w th 'wtf-face-u-campak-water-at-my-leg'.
then kiki said sth again.
i turn to my test tube only t realise i had tilted th tube&th hcl frm my testtube spit spatted onto my ankle. and i stared at it like a complete dummy. LOL!
then Cas held up a HOT test tube for ms J t hold.
&Shyan gave ms J a tube w th beros stuck inside.
andand Balan din wna take off th googles. LOL!
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Tue:
tk nk ingt.

Wed:
enta la ehh.

Thu:
MT oral! hahahahahahahha. i was first!
sumpa th mukeee was priceless when th Q was asked t th others aftr me. lol,dila mukee sinis.

Fri:
errr,lemme see.
mommy bought a new shoe. haha!

Sat:
lepak at Orch mac. newly found H.O.
car/bike-watching.
vespa,KR,SP,harleys.
6evo.2skyline.a couple of civic/subaru.2Ferrari.a silent mustang.man u 2-0 watched at indoC.

Sun:
lepak at home.
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alrite beeeeeeline fo bed gens.
humans are special! hahahahahahahahahahahaahaa.
Allah loves his umat-umat.
k,da.

2009-04-20T17:15:00.009+08:00

im pretty much vibe-less.

schs been schs. you knw hw @#%#@$^$& it cn get.
highlight of last week would be Annual Awards at which I,ADILA MAT ZAIN is th F lucky one t be selected first. sway siakxz.
ohh well,th geferekfek olang all ther so went anw.
hohohaha.
th speech etc was really making me snappy&hungry.
babi peh G-O-H dtg sesuke timing sial. 1hr late sial!
aftr th presentation etc,fun takes over.
w 3-4dslr(s) we go weeee. i want pichas yawww.
especially frm sab,yo awak utang us gamba ramai tau.
gamba raye,hajiL etc. cpt ehh cpt. tk saba.
hoho. k,ak sukee friday.

yg laen ak mls nk elaborate. baaahahahahaa.
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saturday:
slack btol peh slack.

sunday:
gabra nk abeskn hmwrk.

monday:
dead.
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2009-04-13T00:27:00.004+08:00

old joke.

this match made me th happiest kiddo tht day.
bloody red devils plsss dn win th title again if nt some bloody bople-k is gna get cock-y&soo full of profanities.
bitch.

2009-04-13T00:02:00.003+08:00

mak ak peh laki dah melampau.
mak ak pandai sngt kn nk berlaki lagi.
amek kau.

k diam ehh dilaa. babi.
ak kn da naek mls nk balek ruma.
ak kn da naek mls nk mara.
ak kn da naek mls nk layan jantan sial berprangai.
ak kn da mls nk hidop pon ade.
ak kn nk duat dari bapak ak yg tk berhentihenti msk lock up.
ak kn mcm tgh dysfunctional currently.
ak kn mcm da tk bole rase pape lagi.

i guess this is it.
no more sucked ups.
ive had it.
this is my limit.
im done yall.

i cnt feel much anymore.
i cnt think much.
whts sad,anger,fear ?

2009-04-12T23:17:00.003+08:00

friday:
wide awake at 815am.
went oudda bloody hse at idk wht time.
blahhaa,it rained bad a men approached me&sab he din say anything so i went t say a firm,snappy,cranky 'YES??'.
unbelievable man he just wanted t say 'raining laa,ujan.'
fack.
went somewer w someone and
yadayada ak mls nk eleborate th rest.
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saturday:
ARGh(!)
SR s/o SR is th biggest gigantic magnet everhh.
told him this sat wud be th last sat ill havoc etc AND so he ditch other plans t be w me. lol.
geez bitch.
cut me some slack will ya - stop being overly @#%$%&^(^&.
rifimasfas lu tau.
etp got cancalled. babi.
blahhhahaha watch ff4.
went amk and head home.
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sunday:
babi.knnbuay.ccb.
slept th entire day.
and so i ditch muggin,again. predicted.

okeh,i tink ima make a beeline&dream abt cadbury land again.

2009-04-05T22:44:00.007+08:00

i want these (fo nw);
vespa,bohemian dress,hair,fedora etc.

i swear itll die dwn aftr a wk.
its one of those craze thtll get old aftr sometime.
(except fo th vespa&hair.ill shave my hair aftr o`s.hehe.)
dila being dila.

2009-04-05T22:11:00.003+08:00

you dn nd nth,i dnwan you,
i dn nd you,nvr loved you,
youre a nobody,and nvr make it,
youre a Mistake.

a moment much much safer left unrealised.
unnoticed act i fail t capture.
out of sheer stubbornness i fail yet again.
gasping excitedly each time it lights up but only to be punctured like th wheels of a car bailing towards its owner.
a battle i lost.
speaking th unspoken,
everything drifts away like a veil of coloured dust.

2009-04-05T21:27:00.003+08:00

last sat:
went marina B.
a nigga approached us abruptly.
i swear i wntd t say 'supxz nigga' but tot otherwise. lol.
sylva was his name.
he sat v close and left me&kiki no choice but pose a picha w him.

nigga:whts yer name?
ma:aaaa adila.
bloody nigga:ohh haaaadila.

yes ty nigga. fack eh.
im nt th one t shake hands w males but SYLVA was kinda er forceful sumwht.
th way he took our hands t shake gdbye was un-let-go-able.
nigga:mayb we cud meet again before you go.
mcm phm sia lu nigga.
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mon:
went sch w/o kiki.
practical again ak anyhw do.
Naoh asl bole mixed heat,heat again.
ppt ak asl bole tules.
dreaming2 smpi sab panggil pon ak tk heran.

tues:
sumpa ak tkle thn ngn schla.
had breakfast at Mickey D w kiki instead of gg sch.
went over Rids hse t watch mtv.
yadayada ak pulang.

wed-fri:
late fo sch but escape all punishment.
lepak toilet yadayada.
fri,8 out of 20 pple absent. haha joke!
yg laen ak mls nk flashbck flashbck.
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ysterday:
Rid got tix t escape but due t sth cancelled plan.
went town w no wer t head t specifically.
walked frm Marina t orchard & head home.
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sunday:
ak mls nk blaja.
mls nk buat un-beneficial hmwrk(s).
mls nk pegi schla.
mls nk layan ni tu tu ni.

today i went shop&save t buy roti mak sroh.
ak pegi lib.
nth happening. hidop tgh bosan.
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th tix expire 16apr.
nxt wk mati mati ak nk maen tuu go-cart.
yeepidadiduu. tk saba!

2009-03-28T12:16:00.004+08:00

it was merely anything random anyone wud say t another.
bang bang bang t th heart.
v predictable YOU.
if only you knew.
bollocks.

mr T wants me back.
im not in love w B.
i miss K v much.
i miss W alot more.
i wna talk w ma G.
i wna hug T.

2009-03-28T11:20:00.006+08:00

after summer;

similar. close t reality.

wondering(s) are never kept at bay for him.
lovely,lovely.
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sara`s face;
eerie yet exhilarating.
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beatty secondary;
mon/tue lesson as per normal.
wed e-L/thursday NYP/fri wrkshop&j8,walked practically arnd tpy twice,got a book at lib&head home.
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okey freeeeeky,not quite as clear it was 942. again.
nw,say,4 alrd? geez.
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its EARTH DAY.

me:ma then hospitals also switch off ar? cnnt be rite.
mom:yes they will be switched off.
me:then those who live off machines t live DIE sia like tht.
mom:ohya ehh.

my mom was reali slpy,
she was busy killing all th ants in th sugar.
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combinations;
we all hv our past&we all have t live w them.
all you ever knw is th future gets shorter,
th past gets longer.

you behave as if u might.
consistently w an irresistible elusiveness.

i went fo so long&i was so wrong.
and then i rencontre,and nw i ____ vivre sans tu.
and i dont veux t,ive done tht all my life.

"did i asked fo attention when affection is wht i need?
wht use am i as i heap on th floor".

2009-03-20T16:23:00.001+08:00

i wna be spiderGirl 8)

2009-03-16T22:19:00.006+08:00

vous avez fait ma journée d'amourr.

I'm used to opening my own doors and splitting the checks
He introduced me, was always just a friend
Always falling for these bad boys, such a challenge
I'm getting tired, of cleaning up after them
I think I'm ready to be a woman

Oh love, I think I'm ready
Ready for it.

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bypolaric;
i slammed my phone down.literally.
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2009-03-16T21:30:00.005+08:00

friday:
reached home at midnight.with sch U.
partially settled i wud say.
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saturday:
a day out with sabirahaha&fam.th rest c.m.i.
her moms gestures are as adorable as ma mommy.
her sister is as sarcastic as ma sista.
like niagra falls th weather made me a living waterfall.
i bought a biscuit ice-cream t cool off.
sabira bought a vest.
cam-whored like $*&%^*% towards th end of th lane.
went over sungei rd but sadly sellers were packing due t rain.pfft.
walked on and somehw arrived at mustafa C.
yey! i saw th watch i wanted.
i swear it was cheaperrr,like half-priced then at typC.
well ima get it asap.
taxi-ed t banquet w sab&sis.
eat while waiting fo sab mom.
went some lane t send sabs mom.
sab&sis was kind enuf t send me off t th mrt&i went t meet up D.
i was sicked off home so ton till 5am.
k,blahh.
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sunday:
woke up by idk wht time.
got otn and got busy.
k,blahhh.
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(you made me sourire)

spdrG: happy polishing maryjane.
mjb: maryjanes hot.
s: maryjanes mine fyi.
mjb: no.shes mine ok she told me tht she loves me.
s: but im mr spidey.we did th upside dwn kiss,hello!
mjb: but im maryjane so it means tht you kissed me. 8)
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i did nth on monday.
assignments/hmwrks arent done yet.
ohh well.
i got sch tmr,unbelievable.
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2009-03-14T01:24:00.002+08:00

chest tightened.
like adrenalim rush my heart excites a different manner.
consequences like a red light warning i din heed.
like a little child i felt lost soon after.

2009-03-12T23:47:00.007+08:00

between two souls; i need a change.

wht happen?
whts gg on in your head?
i wonder.
keras deh.
susah.
like a dragger i felt.

go on,take your rest love.

truth hurts,lies worse. im sorry.

2009-03-12T22:34:00.005+08:00

on monday i felt like dying.literally.
chemistry practical ak pon buat asl bole.
a matherF killer you are ______.
it was a dragged.
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on tuesday i felt like i can worked it.
50% chance of survival.
c.m.i so i ____.
haaaaa. pathetic i knw. pfft i hate myself too much fo tht.
bailed soon after. GRRRR-eat.
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wednesday was err rather good. i feel dumb at one point.
went slack over kiki place.
went pasa mlm & f&p with kiki at 6plus.
kiki eager naa nk angkat beg schla ak. lol
went home soon aftr.
slept early due t some issues. clearer mind.
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today:
courtesy t dearest YAN,i had t get by sch at 715. damn early.
mate ak sembab giler. mcm baru nangis fo eternity.
i swear i had no bloody mood fo anything.
tapi alhamdulillah it turns out fine.
aftr sch stayed in th nicely-decorated cum cleanest class of 5N1 till 3pm.
quikly rushed over to penin,
and finallyhhh my CFF,kikibinteS,got her smileyhh.
yey *jumps* ak sukeee. heee.
rushed back home soon aftr.
awesome,i was in time fo ellen D. portia was ther. gaha.
at 6pm i went t slp with sch uniform.
woke up at 9pm and realise my fleshy arse was showing itself off.
woke up bathe,pakse mkn and im here like a misguided ninja.
i have a test tmr. i haven got anything covered in ma bloody head&im thinking im screwed.
i did bad fo CA, haha.
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my sisi is a blabber today.
i went 'eh ak tknk dngr tau ape kau ckp. words frm your mouth aint functioning in ma brain.just mumbles of noise.' die diam.
ok im geting cranky.pissed.sot.
mood disorder alert. knn sia.

2009-03-09T00:36:00.005+08:00

(cause when i am w ___, i am thinking of ___.)

ohh loverboy you hesitate. 8)

2009-03-08T23:38:00.004+08:00

friday:
sports day.had subway w posse.
slack at skygrdn k blahh.
'move me like a cyclone'.

bitch eh you Z,9hrs later sia.
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saturday: HAPY 7TEEN NUR ATIQAH SUPAAT.
otp till 3am w Z. *grins*
at 9plus,a text frm kikibinteS regarding flagday.
geez,i was late. bathe,ran t HDB.
met V&SK then went t get our tins.
they had breakfast while kiki said,
'jom,pegi ruma ak,sarapan.' lol.
went t her place,slack,watch MTV,
comment on L.gagas sexuality then met V&SK at skygrdn then gave bck our almost empty tins by 12plus.
kikibinteS went maksu hse while i literally wanted t fly home t chnged.
i was 15mins late.
tiqah,TH BDAE GIRL,was pretty late.
then rushed t PS,got 2pretzels went C.O.
yan got a neck-scarf,
sab got a shoe i got tights.
k,amak peh random/boringhhh siak ni post.wth la kn ak still nk continue.
err,so rushed t C.hall met sab sis and kiki.
rushed over t bugis&ran t zamzam t avoid geting so drench.
met faiz&co then had murtabak&went over H.lane.
kiki&me had difficulty eating th murtabak. lol.
sab,yan&tiqah went home soon aftr.
th rest went shisha-ing.
lepak,laf,shishaa,mkn leftover pretzels,cam-whore&laf even more.
cau at 730&walked to penin fo smileyhh.
walked kiki home and met up devil last min as i was bored.
slack at 44 till almost 12.
i was pronounced soul-less upon landing on my bed.
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sunday:
like a misgiuded soul,i was surprising already in th kitchen at 830AM.
haaa haaa.
used th comp then went central w mom.
got a text frm zackeyhhhhhh and text till 944pm. haaaa.
talked otp till 1030pm before lights was out fo him at camp.
geez,imy,you retarded cheeky mangkok. make a date soon yaww.
i acherly have a physics test.
im suppose t be muggin BUT im here instead. wth,ima fail bad.
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mak ak klaka.
she saw my smiley and went 'kau letak besi eh kat gigi'.
lol.
sisi ak bloody amazed.
dhoyfa 2nd turn. lmfao. funny pple.
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ok eh.

2009-03-06T23:51:00.004+08:00

(so farr)

ak sukee this wk.
skip sch on mon sbb perot ak pain.
wed as well courtesy th dry coughs which eventually ejects liquidfied reddish blood.
went polyC th waiting mak ai bercinte sia. grr.
i went t sit at th wrong section.
no wonder pple look at me.
i went over t th pregnant women area. pandai eh dilaa.
paid $4 fo th mc. haaaa. mcm suke gitu biler dpt tuu paper written medical cert. hekhekhek.
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eternal sunshine of th spotless mind.
i like it! it left me 'huh-ing' thruout most of th er first part.
and i think its cool to erase mind memories.
hee hee hee.
processnye mcm cool gitu loh.
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today kn sportsday.
org lari-lari.
org menang medals.
tapi highlight yg paleng BESTT is
satu tcher jatu mcm nangke busok. ak ngn kiki-LMFAO.knn.
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andand ive got ka-chinggg.
tmr ader flagday.
ohhya,th red casio watch at tpyC is gone.
boohoo.
only left th blue. ohh well.
tmr smileyy etc.
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2009-03-02T00:03:00.003+08:00

perotttt ak saket!
ak nk pekek.

told mom and she said 'da nk uzur tuu.pegi amek panadol yg abg kau belikn untk dhoy.'

im like whttt?!
i dnnow hw to telan pills maaaa!

yeaaa,nw ya`ll knw. go on laf it off.

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k coming sat flagday.
lepas tu ak ade date.
ak tk saba. heee.
PS ohh PS.
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ak craving fo chirpys.
ak craving fo auntie annes pretzels.

2009-03-01T03:17:00.005+08:00

ni random post.
azfarr klakaaa.

2009-03-01T02:58:00.008+08:00

he dont have a phone.

i dont have a computer.

'i find you' he said.
those were th most romantic eng words w italian accent ive ever heard.
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Amazingly,i dont feel self-conscious.
im not sucking in my gut or obsessing about my amazing butt and semi-bulging stomach.
everything feels absolutely right.

'ive nvr done this before'.
'me either'.
His heart is thumping as hard as mine.
'im scared'.
'me too.We be scared together no?'
we kissed,hard.
'do you have a condom?'
'condom?'
'protection.'
'no'.
We groan.
'i be careful'.
'no.i want to but nt w/o protection'.
He groans.
'tonight meet me at th gate'.
His blue eyes like puppy i kisses him.
'tonight,i bring condom' he said.

300miles away IMed him;
until i see you,hold me in your heart,he said. <3

2009-03-01T01:40:00.006+08:00

he typed : "baby, you know that i miss you,
i wanna get with you tonight,
but I can't my baby girl,
and that's the issue,
girl you know i miss you,
i just wanna kiss you,
but i can't right now,
so bby,kiss me thru th phone."

sweet matherF. syg bestfren cum bf ak. <3

2009-02-23T00:33:00.008+08:00

(shud be 21febs post.)

ni post da longgggg over due and ak blame schla. pfft.
bear with me its a longgg post.

first i ought to thank these lovely gens in my life fo th bdae wishes and gifts.

syedDevil,sabira,yan,ella,viona,celeste,liYing,
Uma,Vnessa,Dev,Jaryl,Azfar,Huijin,
dearest Dhoyfa,mommy(ak syg mak ak),brather,Sery,Nia,kiki,Natalie.

mak ak CUTE.satu ruma,bilik sebela2 pun text hapi bdae.hee.

ak da 7belas deh.
ak rase rase mcm da tua naa.

ok i got no picha.
with sabira i think.but wth.
th mini-verse of celebration with close ones at skygrdn was lovelyhh.
v,uma,sery,cher&nia din make it due to some tests/meet bfrns.
ohh well i had a great time tho i had a difficult time carrying th biggg banner frm th lift to my doorstep.
i swear i wanted to burst out laffing.i felt like a maniac.
ohh well semuanye goes well.

th surprise frankly caught me off guard.
1230 went out sch.kiki said to be home by 2pm.
she went home,i went devils hse.
waited fo him to bathe then head off to skygrden as instructed by sabira last min.
she said to come quick ella and yan had a fight.
babi ak dibodokn. instead thers a cake and a biggg banner with my name on it.
sab gave a bohemian headband(love it!!).
early morn i see present under my table.heh.
then was told kiki wasnt home.
ak mcm confused.finally she came and another surprise.
she acherly went suntec and marina to get th bohemian bag i wanted soo badly.but ther no more so she bought th muji wallet/purse instead.loveees it!
play 007bang and concentration and sth sth.
went home at 5plus.
i was a happy kiddo. 8)
ohh and did i mention i was smack with th cake like 2/3times.
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sat spent time with my bestfren,syed th Devil.
wanted to go out with my gf BUT shes working. ohh well.
i cnt rem wher th hell we went AT ALL.wth.pfft.
ohh yeaa somebody gave me a necklace.gahaha.
3yrs in a row i got a necklace.
th best was frm citigem frm ADAM ERWIN. heh.

anw anw i saw a mad indian man at cityH mrt.
lol.he posed as a statue in th middle of th world yaww.
and and a weird man sumwht like a fucking perv in th mrt.
we`re like lmfao and no bloody human being noticed him as much as we did. funny.

went home then tesempak abg at lift.he saw devil.
at home:
abg:kwn kau tuu umo brape?
me:ahh same ngn ak arr.17/16.
abg:asl tinggi satu mcm sak?
me:lol. enta ehh.
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skg almost setiap hari ak kene staybck lsp punye hal.
best oi.
ak sumpa ak suke.
asam-bly mcm gerek,mcm scary mcm sedih pon ade.
cnb talk.
well 1 particular picha cracks me up hard.
picture it;a male wanted to get hardcore high on glue so he wrapped him face with a plastic with th glue inside&in th end he went to hell. ok,mayb nt funny. but th hall was totallyhh filled with lafters. lol.
this wk ak puase. baya puase acherly. ni case pakse diri.
ohh well,i feel lighter anw.
but fo a 5f3inch i feel gemok. but im ok with tht.
fuck thin imma out-bitch thin and be anorexic. k,mepek.
fo now i think im getin turn on by fiber than by my own bf.
i mean choc kisses are soo delicious i cud have an entire make-out session with it.
if eating is falling in LOVE,
i just met th meal i plan to marry. 8)
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and i have officially changed my num. yey!
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2009-02-15T23:06:00.004+08:00

Daytona was a bomb. Devil was th man of th hr. woohoo!
secretly stealing glances,i reali tot hes vv ___. fiercee bebeh. <3>

we got headturns while walking out.
gaha,damn fuck but we were feeling damn cock-ky. gaha. so long suckers.

it ends well.
settled.
but th guilt of stomping off an 1hr before v-day ends still lingers. arrgh.
split-up?
it din cross ma mind at all.
ily,______. <3

and today i achieve sth. i feel so bloody darn good. *jumps*
k,done. tumblr visits fo now.

2009-02-14T02:07:00.004+08:00

happy v-day gens&dames. 8)

remember those walls i built,
well bby they`re tumbling down.
i found a way to let you in.
standing in th light of your halo,
i got my angel now.
it`s like ive been awakened,
i aint never gna shut you out.
everywhere im looking now
im surrounded by your embrace
bby i can see your halo
youre everything i need and more
its written all over your face
pray it wont fade away.

bby,i can feel your Halo. <3

2009-02-14T01:36:00.006+08:00

all my stress-ness are build when YOURE arnd. cb.
lets live this dejavu all over again. tsk.
steng kehidupan ak hebat tersngt-sngt.

i have my SPECIFIC reasons.
ive seen it all.
HE proof-ed to be so much more worthier fo now.period.

now tell me you see th obvious.
take a good look at me - ma mind is TIRED.
so tired fo now.
lemme rest.
i need to collect myself.
youre still gna BE one of my closes. <333

2009-02-06T00:20:00.007+08:00

assembly was grrrreat.

performance by Wicked Aura was ohh-so-shaketotheleft&right.

ok,mcm stress rasenye.
early wake ups,unnecessary hmwrks,bloody tests.
i loved it! cnt express more.

you are soo last season ya`knw.
nw i undrstnd hw she feels.
i feel stupified by falling head over snickers fo you.
disgusted. ergh.

ooh syg syg syg.you`ll nvr knw abt it will you?
gahaa sweeping kapa. adored arr. 8)

ak tktau ape lagi nk bbual psl schla. gaah.
gopalabuto bosan siollll.

Michelle called.
suntec here i come,again.
k,lame naa dilaa.

besok ak abez schla 1230.
ak nk isap ganja lepas tuu. weehaa!
ak nk beg bohemian prints tuu!
ak nye bdae in err 15days? yey!
valentines with myself? pamper diri sendri lh nmpk2nye.

i seriously cnt recall wht th hell ive been doing with my hands and legs together with my eyes and ears th past few days. k,baguuus.

k,slamat mlm. ak nk pegi website laen. tumblr preferbly.

coolios?
ive totallyhh given up.
ty fo th moments beyotch.

2009-01-28T22:35:00.007+08:00

first of all lemme say err,
welcome beeyotch (F).
second,this matherF post is to provoke matherF gens.

paris ris at cnyr kn best.
bbqnye kn lagi best.
toiletnye kn tk.

seen it all evrywhere now.
gets so matherF bored. *yawns
eh cmon arr.
un-outstanding.
gens of th matherF world huh. gaah.
and then i start wondering where do i matherF stand.
somehw it matherF disgust me muchmuchmuch. ergh.

i knw what ive done.
what ive brought my matherf mind into.
a matherf dimension thatll stay.
yes,STAY.
i had to spill it to someone.
just ONE.
and i did.
she exp th same. ohh goody.
funny hw i had to matherF roll my eyes at it and said 'ohh well,get ready ar eh dilaa.' knn. lol.
4times? yeaa.
da bekecai id say. like totally. mcm tk saba nk ** ****.
gagagagagagagagaga.

when someone gives up on you completely its much more worse then when they hated you.

eh kau da mepek ar sia.
kau ngn kau ngn kau skali. ergh.

i guess my problem lies with mankind.
conclusion:
watch me go with my matherF attitude.
in other words ima sucked up,BIG.

sumpa ak da mls __ _____.
same old nth. whateverhh.

u make me say it;
i appreciate nth from you(anymore).

2009-01-23T21:21:00.003+08:00

it wasnt too long.
it wasnt too short.
just Perfect.
i slept well.

igottomeetdevil.kbyeeblogegegehh.

2009-01-20T19:32:00.005+08:00

and so dilaaNinja th misguided soul surprise herself - shes using th comp now. gag.

schs ok.
bloody freaking hell,
now i hv to start cracking my bloody brain fo equations all over again fo th next 9mnths? Grrreat.
motivational support frm moi posse i think ill do just fine. gag.

cny coming!
bbq! k best.

dry coughs,hate `em.

haven been contacting devil. ohh well pp8 c.m.i.
top up aftr olvl da mcm melampau sngt. gahh.
jagass is an unbelievable ***. geez. numa was right.
and YOU,youre no fun. middle-F same kau.

"why din u rply moi text?"
"u ask me Q like i soo bad like that."
"i was just asking!" silence.
you knw,you are a mfp. again she was right.

you got me on cloud nine-thoudsand with th megawatt smile you flashed.
but ive known better fo some reasons.
im not th girl ure bringing back to mama.
understood.
fo a moment,like a sec or more,i tot id happen.
background melodied to rihannas music of th sun its you whose dancing with me.
always.
it just match perfectly.
pardon my sinful tots but i loved it.
i watched you go.walk off while bfrn was by my side looking at me watching you go.
how sad.
youre an incredibe man i must say.
just lovely.

how saddening.
im starting to despise lui.
i din wna write yours to be frank.
shocked overcome me stating th bloody fact into my bloody brain:lui aint divertimento.
sad sad sad.

paybacks a B. middle-F.

2009-01-12T01:22:00.007+08:00

1week ar sia tk on9. gag.
smgt keketalan "blaja" la konon.
long-post warning.
frankly,i dn dig long posts but wth. just go with it.

sec 5 is uh amazing?
yeaa,pretty much.
except fo th shoes ive been wearin tht pretty much made me look like a complete retard walking. gag.
bruises in th veins - yeaa awess.
being in N1 fo 4yrs was awesomeness.
and N3 fo th last yr cause its a L1R4 thing.
pfft,tell me abt it.
seriously i dn give a sams-hill hw i fahhking look.
and mayb blog updates will be like once in 2wks?
gag.

between monday too friday - sch.
aftr schs either with devil or its home mugging.
sch have been fun - esp chemistry - which NVR,i repeat NVR fail to make me moree nervous thn everr.
maths,MT,eng is uh okey.
physics - bummer. wer sia u mr D.chan?! 1wk no less?
comb-humans? aweeesomeh. cirsumsized,trees,jungle etc.
PE ak sukee. must train my stamina alr. 3rnds in 15mins?! ew.
boring kn post ak skrg? ahh wadv ar.
tgh self-centred bnyk currently,satisfying only moi boringg needs. gahh.

saturday:
10am study till 7pm?
at 12nn i made a beeline fo bed&had th most powerful nap like always.
went lib with devil at 820.
got th 2nd epi of summerintern.
went 44 lepak.
before tht an old women gave direction to devil as wer to put food fo her beloved cats(she cnt walk,soo yea)at a specific area. (lol) then thank us profusely with 'bless you bless you.'

woman:your girl is it?
devil:ahh ya.
woman:okey boy i will tell you where to put it.
she umm,reali directs pple "well",NOT! gag.
k,blahhahahh pulang at 3am.

sunday:
books.book-freak.book-snake.book-worm.wadv.
finish swt6teen in 5hrs? went lib alone. heh. best.
went F.A blahh. azizOHHsab.
went home at 10+.

soo not looking forward:
sch strts at 9.
4 fab period with ms Jamie to strt th day.
recess with home food frm now on.
ohh im bringin campbell mayb.
mths and 30 pass 12 its sch over.
but im staying fo olvls etc. heh. all th best fo olvl candi-s.

okeh so i hve to like bring a FAt-ring file to sch tmr.
make a guess wads it fo ; yeaa,ms Jamie. (aww)
ahh k diam.

adrenalin rushes in.

sick in th stomach was companied by.
still as dashing id say.
feels weird,i swear.
and so they said sth abt bfrn and u look my way.
all silent suddenly.
like almost expecting a respond.
i was,infact,a living dummy at tht momnt;cnt speak,only smile.weakly.
did u happen to read my thoughts?
sad enuf it wasnt loud.
bold;just staring at you makes it lovely.
i cnt say wad it was but i`ll definately break a heart if it was.
as guilty as i felt i let it pass like always. why?cause youre easy.
hes mine but i wnted you suddenly.
why?
dreamguy of mine.fetish hots since like forever.godsend.

forgive my sin-nist tots but wud we have a chance?
you heard th rumours.& you laf at it.
im glad.

alrite beeline fo some z`s now.
goodnight and go pepo.
we,humans,are awessomeh. 8)

2009-01-05T00:55:00.005+08:00

okay so um,its 12.56am and counting.
bsk ak schla.best eh tk tido2.

ok meh,ak update wadv yg AK RASE patot.
friday tk jadi tngk twilight.gahh.
kiki tk jadi sume pon jadi mcm mls.ahak.
met up syed at 1pm?lepak kejapxz then syed accompanied home,i got chnged and went to got FOOD.haaaa6561.
went soccer court and syed say he starplayer.anal arr sia.
u reading arrr?!@ heh,tk kesahh. gahh,knn.
watch galvin,dev,syed aka star player,jaryl,mikey,sa-sth,vinod and i dn rem played a match.
okay,so halfway got a text.
bodo peh ass,bad timing sia ko msg.
so fo th rest of th night slack at 44 till 9pm then cau with syed to get FOOD again. heh heh.
th rest is umm yeaaa..well-spent blahhhhahaha.
went home at 1am?

saturday ak pegi cine.
went CL to get FOOD. then heeren fo a headband fo sch.
haaa,we gna wear th same one. ak sukee.
th rest of th day was spent with kiki and semot at changi.
haikal went to fishing etc. eww,th worm.
we went cycling.mcm biase pussy ader skit pain. gahahah.
lol,2guys cycle past and said,'hati-hati cik salma.' or wadv.
lol.
semot belikn mkn.k,blahh cau at 930pm.

sunday.hari ahad.
ak bgun at 1.tertido bck so at 4+ woke up.
called up syed and went bck slp.
bgun again,buat "hmwrk", got ready went out to meet syed.
k,blahhhahaha.balek at 11.
haaa5656552 siang sehh.

fear.
i know i hate it.
ive been feeling it.
umm,pretty strong.
idky.
is it coming true?
ohh,pls nooo.
it means alott.
soo much i could breakdown to th worse state yet.
help me thru these things.
amin.

2009-01-02T02:00:00.003+08:00

banyak ak punyee 'insaf'. lol. da brape bnyk hari ehh ak tk sholat btol2. knn.

anyhw,sume org tgh bbual/blogged psl COUNTDWN. gaah. ok,anw i went out with kiki as planned. went over to her crib-bahhh at umm 2pm. fickleficklefickle atlast by 3pm baru siap sedie untk go out. ak kn,tk feeling man sngt arr soo decided on a green dress which has only been worn once to sentosa,class outing last june. and ohh pertame kali jumpe SYEDevil. din knw he would tag along when hes like frm ftpss?! gaahh.
and so i had a silky-like dress on. priced at 69doller at hajiLane. i rem i had it reserved cause i din have ka-ching at that mase. haha,sanggop sia dilaaa. k,ak mcm braggin. haaa,TK KESAAA ARR.
and then hoodie frm hjLane pon ak bwk enta knape.
first went..k,i dn rem. haaaa54561687465.
kiki went to get a sch bag at penin. ripcurls was wayywayy too exp. then went toilet a couple of times. vain skit ari tuu. then went funan mkn. mak ai,klakaa. then pegi db jumpelh kite ngn pakSUASNI. heh heh. kite bbual2 mcm tktau ade cust nk ask fo direction. haaa4354365.
then kiki wna watch twilight second rounding. but timing mcm pepek soo duduklh kite at th concrete floor outside cathay. ambek ambek picha sini sana. then walk all th wayy BACK to marina square. gahhhh. best oi. jln long distnce mcm da biase biase gitu. amak,th crowd make me dizzy when we`re walking up th superrrrrlongggggggggg stairs towards marina square. ade org sit ther mcm picnic. haa,i spot a cute babygirl. she fell on her bolster. (awww) so went teros to 7-11,th place i accidently left my HP ther,to get drinks. mak ai,haus haus haus. beli air then duduk btolnye one corner kaki bukak besaa.freeshow fo th world.
soon aftr that walk to cityhall and went home. din bother to catch no freaking counting dwn shitxz. k,tk shitxz. got alil cranky over th tiredness and all.
ok,blahhhh. mandi,mkn skit and buatlh ak bermcm mcm lagi.
missed called jag and syed like 464655461651 times just to irritate th fucking vitamins oudda `em. LOL-LING.
and ty dear friends fo th wishes etc. ak appreciate it sebnyk bnyk mungkin.
ok,soo aftr dat watch 'maid in manhatten' then k.o,AGAin, while texting devil halfway.

and today i did a couple of things.
skipskipskip.
so at 8+ met syed and went to popularrrr. wna get kiki her pencil but th queue like sab say,mintk ampon siaa.
so walked oudda ther. went plygrnd and lepak till 11.30.
and nw im home nt slping when schs like in afew hrs time.
gahhhh idc,mayb slp in class? haaaa54513516546.

th plan aftr sch ; watch twilight with syed and kiki.
haaaaaaa84651561651561561.

2008-12-30T22:50:00.009+08:00

(sorry dear,i had to stole it frm your fs.haaaaaaa153489745762. and umm loveee this picha bettahhhhh.)

bear with me and this post. its longggg. hahahaaaaaaa.

yea right dilaaa. so muchh of your gg over to RIRIs hse.

ohhohh,best or waddd,a last min "adventure-date" with MILL-LAY UH. heho. got a text at umm 4+? tot it`ll be arnd tpy but he said nt hang arnd in tpy. pffft. so got chnge quickly and went out.

saw a couple of pple otw. walk at lib and saw hafiz syed punye kwn,lol. soon aftr another familiar face,awal umm k diam.

met up mill at first cabin. th plan was umm to go marina barrage and i think cam-whored. but th last bus was at 6pm!?$&*$ we reach at 6.30pm! fuckhh. soo had a 1hr walk towards esp. best ehh mill. lol. dusty roadsxz and alottt of bangla. sial arrr krg. soo th marina waters were decorated with that whites balls with wishes on it. it form like a pattern i think. k,boringgg.

k,th place ther cn feeling th crowd already. wad moreee tmr.

anw went to marina 7-11. haus sngt siaa. mill went,k tknk ckp. and i went to get 2pau-s and a big gulp. got a random text frm ass. k,anw went to get famous amos brownies! yummy! halfway eat/talk i wnted to rply ass text and yeaaa i had acherly left my phone at th 7-11 area ther. i almost cn cry i tell you,tot i lost it. naseb ak baek arrrr. a chi man was ther and he was holding it and gave it back.

so went to rooftop at esp and chilled. ohh wow i din BELIEVE that i saw you jagass! die kn PRETEND tk nmpk ak. best or wadddd. nvr in a mill yrs wud i expect to bum into a guy ive had history with. k,wadv. so went to a shop ther and it sells v v v awesome stuff. but wayyy to exp. chilled till 9+?

got a text AGAIN frm ass. pffft. die kn kalau ak tk rply mcm org senget. send like 3textxz. eksyen tanye ak pt mane,tgh buat ape. eh jag ko tgh bace ehh blog ak. huh?? hope not.

watch a singing thing at ther like fo afew mins then cau sin chee to raffles mrt to tpy. dats abt it arrr.

and tmr i cnt wait! gg out with kikiSYG! coolios.

and umm mill,ure soooooo weird man. k,wadv awesome anw. you don even like rem pples name. you don even recognise a fren sitting beside us at roof. ima smack you hard if u dn 'sapa' me in public infuture.

2008-12-29T20:24:00.001+08:00

i wanted this soo bad. t-mobile sidekick. but th fact it functions like a rusty machine. 1.3mega? eww.

2008-12-29T18:38:00.001+08:00

rip off. haaaaa. cb.

ok sooo i cnt rem AGAIN wat i did fo th past couple of days. best or wad ehh.

ok maybe sat i rem. suppose to "double date" again. lol. but end up lepak je. haha. oohhh SOMEBODY got tiffany and co arr.
hahah. i almost got arrr sth frm CITIGEMS but umm i left him even before that freakin jewel got to me. k,info yg sungguh tidak nded. but wat th flip. i soo cud hv pawn it or wadv. k,diam. ak ter-anal finger kat kiki`s butt. hohoho,k tk. sial,tk sengaje sia ter-tekan awak peh pepek area. slping on th same bed pretty much adds to sleepless nights. gagaga. ok so AGAIN some idiot text me up wif th lame-old-thing-hai-le-knl2. gahhhh. i din want to rply like usual. but hw lovely of kiki to umm rply it fo me. *mukee pasrah* it was hwever sarcasticly rply.

guy:hai le knl2?
me:err bole arrr?
guy:thanks,btw name sape name i syafiq.(knn,he acherly said ty. mepek sia.)
then kiki:qifays. eh name kite mirror image eh. mak bpk have same thot eh.

k,blahh. th thing is he obviously doesnt get sarcasm. best sia. soon aftr,syed text. heho. he went lullaby halfway. lol.

so sunday woke up early with syed and serys text. then crawl back to bed with kiki. woke up at 12+ and then mandi,eat. watch sth on mtv and went home at 6pm. mak nk belikn shoe schla punye pasal. lol. so aftr that reach home 7+. slp fo awhile then mit up syed. k,blahhhhhhhhhhhhahhahahahahhahah. went home at 12. monday kn i did nth except umm.. k nth.
michelle din call. k,wth man.

k,i want to eat my choc eiclar or hwever its spelled.

2008-12-26T20:00:00.003+08:00

k best. im not working till umm michelle calls me. weehaa! oohhohh countdown is nearing! im prolly NOT gg over to zac. i cnt acherly. imagine sth happen ther with me and him. then my arr.. yeaa founds out,mati lh like dat. so syed said hes gg to idk where to partayy la ehh. ok so im like already 100% gg to partayy like usual retards with kiki-lala.(lol-ing big time pat name kauu dulu.) anw,wed kn i seriously cnt rem wad i did. except work got cancel i got a off day. and thursday was christmas! yey! i didnt get any hadiah but what th flip i went pasamlm ngn fiance ak. blaah lepak sini lepak sane met up biRAWR aftr she clock out. she smelt like a cookie! lol. kiki beli cookie. paid fo a 100g price but got 150g approx. lol. 10% off lagik. kiki sukeeee picit2 button atm. gagagaga. then went pasamlm again and lepak bwh blok 80a agaknye. talk,eat,drink,maki,maki then syed join soon after. lepak till 930pm then send sab home then kiki. syed followed home and then off to mac to take sth frm unclewan. went back home with syed and then lepak again at somewhere. *giggles* went home at umm 1230am. fell aslp halfway while texting syeddevil. lollollol.

k,da. im gg library. heho.

th problem was you were using me in a total diff way that i was using you. i didnt mean what i text you ass.

2008-12-24T00:48:00.003+08:00

chalet on thursday right afta results.
run home,rush,rush,rush went costa sands.
my umm pussy hurts real badd thanks to th stalker who followed us cycling.mak ai,mukee miyang.
cau sin chee at arr 10++.smpi tpy at 11pm.best pe ader stalker ikot lagik.again,i run home.k,blahhh knock out.

friday was suppose to umm "double date" with kiki,semot and umm syed.but plans got cocked up.syed cnt make it bcause,k tknk ckp.anw got ass as replacement but ass being an ass didnt get my text. pfft.and i swear i cnnt rem anything already.

i dn rem saturday.
i dn rem sunday.

monday i got hired. th best wrk ive ever experienced. afta wrk wna teman birawr fo her break but cust like fuiyooo. so while waiting thers this time i got well-damn irritated.
all thanks to umm alil knnccbsuckerxz-matrep staring at me.
wat th sams hill sia. its like those stares like im naked or doing some pole dance or sth. amak then his hair arr,u think cool ar boy. *middle fingr sama lu.* so afta that spent time with kiki. mcm matair eh ki,tkle seh satu hari tk contact. lol. so reach home at idk laa. but knock out hardcore.

and tuesday i work. w/o joni tho. she took off,boohoo. set alarm but off it asa it sounded. went back slp. so mcm terlmbt skit. den da gitu hp ter-tggl at home. run back to take it. open th door like pencurik like dat. lol. then run to th mrt,and was late. michelle made me sandwich instead of geting mad. heho,nasib ak baek lerrr. got dismissed at 2pm and went cheers and umm yea saw YOU. nasib ak thn anger,lau tk ak da cabot ko peh mukee. k,blah reach home,knock out,AGAIN. woke up,sholat,mandi,went lib and nw here i am in cyber-world. heho.

2008-12-19T23:00:00.004+08:00

she:"hello? buzy arr?"

he:"no lah,waiting 4 my mother to slp.okay,finally she went to slp already.why?"
he again:"oi i not busy now la!"
ass has a problem with himself when no one rplies him. lmfao.

meet hafiz.
he asked,"baek tk rambot ak."
i said,"tk ar.jahat sak."
he said,"ak gi saloon jab tadi,mera sia."
lol.
ask him to send th pic and he did sth else.
fulamak,ak tesedak gilerbabi sak nmpk tuu pic.
best kepe.

Pato-Fizo says:
http://only.ultracoool.com

dilaaaa feeling Ninjaaa ; says:
ape sak ko send.. kk jab.
kau nk sabo ak arrr. nti ak bgi num ak on9 org gilerrr yg call.

manusiaOHHhumanxz. lol.

2008-12-19T22:23:00.002+08:00

th first text was amazingly laffable.
th next basically got me shocked.
wad th hell is gg on in your mind.
seriously.
confuse ak dibuatye.
and then i heard all of it.
cnt help but say,
'I TOLD YOU SO.'
evil overcome me,and i wanted to laf at LUI.
mofo.lol.

ive waited too long.
so i left it ringing ther all alone.
i had to.

2008-12-19T21:39:00.003+08:00

ok,so nw i realise my only 3.2megpix phone is having its gilerbabi mood swing too.
siak.
i had to send msg twice to ass cause he claimed he didnt get any.well,i didnt even get ur text ass!
siak arrr.pp8 abez arr gini mcm.
and nurk said th same.pfft.
i mean th phone only smash itself onto th grnd 4854546times.
wadV.

kiki said we didnt get any motherFuhh job cause we`re ggna go sec 5. lol.
well im jobless fo nw.
i nd to start muggin alil i guess.

18dec somehw marks th happiest day of my life.
*smile wide*
and umm happy belated to ADAM ERWIN.
i just hope you dn try kill urself again.
im reali sorry things end bad.

2008-12-19T20:58:00.003+08:00

"so hw do you think you did."
"err,idk."
"well,you passed."
"serious ar?"
"yes."
"i thought i wudden make it at all."
"dont worry,i have faith in all of you."
tkde warning ak teared up.
msJamieOHHmsJamie.

have alil faith.
i saw hope a sec aftr my results was handed over.
im glad,vv glad.
and now im just glad i didnt throw all my books away.
i reali tot i was gg ITE.
i even planned fo 2nd intake with sisi and SYED.
nehnehpups,bye ITE,hello beatty fo another yr!
alhamdulillah,im gg get N and O cert.
better than none ehh.
weehaa!ill see my classmates again.
best or wad.
ok,mayb nt all.
ill miss those who didnt make it.boohoo.
but nt n3/n2 studs.

2008-12-15T02:52:00.003+08:00

umpteen attempts ; spiderman&maryjane.
again bby?

"find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,who calls you back when you hang up on him,who will lie under th stars and listen to your heartbeat,or will stay awake just to see you sleep.

wait fo th boy who kisses your forehead,who wants to show you off to th world when you are in sweats,who holds your hands infrnt of his friends,who thinks youre just as pretty w/o makeup on,th one who is constantly reminding you of hw much he cares and lucky he is to have you..

th one who turns to his friends and says, 'thats her.shes th one.'

(via hitormiss)

2008-12-14T21:37:00.002+08:00

and when th cookie crmbles

2008-12-13T20:56:00.003+08:00

i had th oppurtunity to ask.

just so you knw,i did read your latest post.
i have no matherfucking idea wth is gg on and wth happen with you and yea org tuu.
i swear i dont.
im not ggna hesitate,be scared nor ashamed to say YOU HAVE DISAPPOINT some of us.big time.

i just hope you dont run away frm these.
`cause hungry wolves are pretty much everywhere currently,
goddamn demanding fo a matherfucking EXP.

she sacrifice her fucking time.
sacrifice her mugging period.
she sacrifice altho physics examination was in a few hrs time.
she sacrifice herself.
you,WERE her dearest friend.
she was willing to be scolded by her FATHER only bcoz it seemed tat u had a matherfucking emergency gg on.
im nt hesitating to say pretty much bullshit.

AK PALENG PANTANG KALAU ORG MINTAK "ADVICE" ABE PASTU SWAYSWAY TK DNGR TEROS.BUANGBUANG ORG PEH SALIVA ADER ARR.KAU BLG AK SAPE TK GERAM.DA GITU KWN RAPAT PLAK TUU.DA GITU SITUATION OF YOURS REPEAT MCM RETARD.ABE AK TNGKKN JE.BEST PER.IN ADDITION TO DAT YOU DID STH MORE DRASTIC.AMAK TUU MOVEMENT KO MAKE AK MCM NK SALUTE SAMA KAU DAHHH.UTAMEKN DIE MMG BEST EHH. KNN.

sumpa ak ade lagi bnyk nk muntakn.
sumpa.

bagos ar kau tego ak.psl ni hal ak peh mood btol peh swing gilerbabi ari ni.org tk bersala pon kene maki ngn ak.

knnccbfuckkerrrrr.

2008-12-09T03:27:00.003+08:00

jealousy is nth more than just a lack of confidence.

"ohh boo hoo,
you have a sob story,
we all have a sob story,
dont think you`re soo special or different just cause youre hurting,
`cause heres a secret,
WE`RE ALL HURTING."
;anonyomous

there comes a point in life when you realise who really matters,who never did,and who always will.
we talk like we know whats gg on,but we dont.
we dont know aything.
we`re young and we`re ggna screw up alot.
we`re ggna keep changing out minds and sometimes even our hearts.
and thru all that,
th only REAL thing we can offer each other is Forgiveness.

2008-12-08T16:57:00.003+08:00

sanjayOHHzac.

hotels arent that bad.
direct cash at th end of th day.
but it got me freaking shagged.

smiley piercingOHHsmiley piercing.

i swear i nd another job.
bartender would suddenly be th most perfect job right now.
sad thing,i HAVE to be 18 yrs of age. kedi ar barzxz.

i want my holga.
i want my smiley.
i want my vivitar.
i want my industrial.
i want my shoes from 2001.
i want my half-shaved hair.
i want 50 first dates before i turn 17 in 2months time.
i want to go escape theme park sooo badly!
i want to kill myself fo not turning to Allah.
i want to quit drinking and smoking.(mcm phm)
i want to snog mischa burton.
i want to rembat SYEDRIDUAN(boplek kedi) again and again at his ****.
i want to make things right.
i want to kill this fucking EGOISM of mine.
i want to see JAGAN again fo th b`day present he said he got me 2month early.
i want to be a warden by 21.
i want to be a superyoung mommy.
i want to find a job today.

k,bye.

2008-12-06T02:07:00.002+08:00

specially made fo NASIHA SAKINENEHH. *muke miyang*

1. do you want to kiss your bestfriend?

2. what do you wear on sundays?

3. do you want to murder someone right now?

4. name one person who is ohh-soooo-boring.

5. how awesome do you fucking think you are?
(rating from 1-2. lmfao)

6. do you fucking drink red(disgusting)wine?

7. name th person who keeps calling you in th wee hours of th night/morn.

8. why th hell are you not 160 in height?

9. give 11 reasons why you are NOT innocent?

10. describe yourself in 6 words.

lol.answer frankly arr bitch.

2008-12-06T01:32:00.002+08:00

and then i Q my fucking idiotic stupid brainless self ;
'asl SIAL ak mcm ni? nk kenek langga ngn bas pe baru nk start insaf etc?'

mimpiburok?
maaf ya.
yeah,i felt it.
fast.
changed everything.
i guess you too mean alot to me.
<3 you ar ehh.

2008-12-05T00:03:00.002+08:00

i miss my classmates!
chalet got cancelled.best kepe.
bbq on th 26 got postponed.awesome sia.
pretty much waiting fo dear CELESTE to come bck fo everything to happen.
goshh i want to go back to school!

i miss VIKNESH vvvv much.
i miss SABIRA vvv much.
i miss YAN vv much.
i miss CEL vvv much.
i miss LIYING vv much.
i miss DAWOOD vv much.
i miss ARIF vv much.
I miss RAM vvv much.
i miss SHAIKABBY vv much.
i miss MICHAEL vv much.
i miss VANESSA vvvvvvv much.
i miss ELLA vv much.
i miss UMA vvv much.
i miss SEAN vv much.
i miss HAFIZ vv much.
i miss ANTHONY v much.
i wanna see you pple arrr!
we partay like a rockstar.
(vodkas and ciggs not included.)

did i leave anyone out? heh,ak tk kesa pon.

2008-12-04T17:19:00.004+08:00

devil.

2008-12-01T00:31:00.003+08:00

apfelkayzen. 8)

knnccbfuckfuck peh late night feverrrrr!
tanks eh flu u aint helping either.

2008-11-29T22:51:00.003+08:00

th reason why he doesnt call.

and this is hw she felt everyday since knwing you.

2008-11-29T15:58:00.001+08:00

heres th truth about th truth ;
it hurts. so we lie. just to save ourselves.

2008-11-29T15:34:00.003+08:00

(ty i can read.tumblr)

hangover much i feel sick.
theres a first fo everything.
its a sad thing to what i had to observe and hear everyday.
i have my own mindset altho im never at that stage to make a strong stand fo myself just yet.
i have been a total whore all this while.
but im a coward still fo not telling you everything that ive been doing.
at 16,im v v immature still.
itoticudfallinlovewith10atonce.deadwrongdila.
its really a sad world afterall.
a repeated cycle of hell.

and when all this happens,i just want to disappear and wished no one ever finds me.
i should start abusing myself fo not turning to Allah all this while.

regrets.

2008-11-27T02:52:00.002+08:00

take back your memories.

whatever happened back there was a bigass mistake.
i wanted to be with you so much.
i wanted u to be mine.
i wanted u to fly with me.
i wanted u to grind with me.
i wanted u to dine with me.
i wanted to go against all odds for you.
andherewegoagainass.
and not a minute spent,
to think that we`d regret so we just take it back,
these words and hold our breath,
forget th things we swore we meant.
cant say im sad to see you go ; CAUSE IM NOT.

i knew better 2secs aftr th split off.
i wasnt _ _ _ _ u no more.
USED TO was th best describe term.
platonically attached as friends should be th whole deal now.
mayb less but nth more fo sure.
im not hating you.